Friday, October 28, 2022

Means and ends

 Source


Ksitigarbha hears the cries of the world and voluntarily enters the hell realms to provide support. The current society in the USA is a hell realm, or hungry ghosts, in some respects.


The unskillful means of the early communist party trying to get it's way has created a world where people imagine communism is synonymous with authoritarianism. There are consequences to using unskillful means. The supreme court is finding out about that.

Democratic socialism is about moving in that direction with consent. Persuading, and accepting when the majority doesn't want to move in that direction. If the majority of the people don't want roads, or trash removal, or accessible health care, then we can't get it. That's the give and take of democracy. Many people reject activist government trying to solve problems. Ramming them down someone else's throat isn't the way. The means are the ends in democracy. It's through persuasion and discussion. It's a battle of knowledge. Humans are limited, they don't always act in their own best interests. Democratic socialists don't know better, though, because that leads to authoritarianism. 

Current Republicans think they know what is right for America, they feel they got close to it. It just so happens to align with the evangelical christians, white supremacists and other anti-woke ideas that reject inconvenient ideas like global warming and all we know now about how the world works. Greed is good. Power is good. There is no equality of justice before the law, it's a sliding scale. Some just want less taxes and don't like progressive thinking that leads to more taxation. America was founded on rejecting taxes without representation. They just take off that last part about representation because we're not ruled by England any more. Not since July 4, 1776.

For a democracy to work everyone has to do their part, including the leaders. When leaders break norms and just have a by any means mentality, it goes to pot. Everyone thinks they know better. I kind of miss the WW2 era where grandiose Hitler types were not revered, the way Kanye West can admire him, Trump can admire him.

We’re trying to have a French Revolution moment but it’s the right that has gotten violent. Violence to enforce the disparity of wealth. By those who imagine themselves as having ultra rich concerns.

I often think about the violence of John Brown who worked to abolish slavery in the USA.

Some want a monarchy in the USA. What the fuck is going on? Italians celebrate Mussolini. Guy goes into a bar in Soho in a Nazi uniform. Elon Musk is tweeting conspiracy bullshit on his platform, to signal that it's OK to spread misinformation.

As a topic of the rise of fascism in our current times, I read about the oldest church in Dortmund, "In December 2016, nine neo-Nazis from various German cities who were associated with the Die Rechte right wing group occupied the church steeple and appeared to set off fireworks from it. The members were subsequently taken into custody by police. Neo-Nazi slogans shouted from the steeple through a megaphone were drowned out by the church bells, ordered to be rung by the vicar of St. Reinold's. The illegal occupation of the church's tower was met with disbelief and anger from the church's spokespersons and the vast majority of the public." I was reading about Dortmund a soccer team I like, and coming across this little nugget in reading about the city. It's kind of shocking to keep coming across these little tidbits of the rise of fascism in our times. 

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Tuesday, October 25, 2022

Obstacles

What are the obstacles? I'm reading the 21 praises of Green Tara and thinking about obstacles.


One hundred full autumn moons gathered together,

Blazing with the expanding light

Of a thousand stars assembled.


Everyone is different, but are they outside you, or inside you?

I would argue they're inside you. Removing your obstacles on the path is perfect. What is blocking you? 


Each Tathagata has a different take on obstacles.

Padmasambhava asks what are your demons, and can you look at them?

Amitabha asks what are your obstacles to love?

Avalokiteshvara asks what are your blocks to compassion?

Manjushri asks what are your obstacles to wisdom?

Amoghasiddhi asks what are your obstacles to courage? Avoiding envy?

Vairocana asks what prevents you from living in the Dharmakaya?

Ratnasambhava asks what prevents you from having equanimity, non-dualistic wisdom?

Akshobhya asks what prevents you from having fortitude and mirror like wisdom? Humility? This is the antidote for narcissism and grandiosity. Green Tara is supposed to be the consort to this Tathagata. 


Reading up on the Tathagatas, I want to read the Śūraṅgama Sūtra. The sutra comes from India, filters through China and then goes back to Tibet, losing and gaining with each transition in geography and language. Another name for it is "The Sutra of the Foremost Shurangama at the Great Buddha’s Summit Concerning the Tathagata's Secret Cause of Cultivation His Certification to the Complete Meaning and Bodhisattvas' Myriad Practices"

"Some of the main themes of the Śūraṅgama Sūtra are the worthlessness of the Dharma when unaccompanied by samādhi power, and the importance of moral precepts as a foundation for the Buddhist practice."

This also leads to the Tathāgatagarbha Sūtra.

Dharmas are endless, I shall master them.

The outflow precepts:

One Must Cut Off Killing

One Must Cut Off Stealing

One Must Cut Off Lust

One Must Cut Off False Speech

One Must Cut Off Drinking



Charles Luk translation of Surangama Sutra. From Goodreads, "Mr Luk translates Sunyata to voidness instead of the more current emptiness. I think voidness points more to the absence of something than the actual meaning of no separate existence."

Read Sangharakshita: “Sürängama Sutra known in Chinese as "The Buddha's Great Crown Sütra', which though traditionally regarded as having been translated from a Sanskrit original by Paramärtha in the eighth century, is now generally acknowledged to be a native Chinese production. An attractive literary composition, it teaches a form of 'Absolute Idealism', and lists twenty-five methods of controlling the mind by meditation on the six sense-objects, the six sense-organs, six consciousnesses and seven elements. Each of these methods is expounded, on the basis of his own experience, by an Arhant or great Bodhisattva.” (Eternal Legacy)

And reading leads to meditation. 

Thursday, October 20, 2022

4 foundations of mindfulness




Wes Nisker has a Wikipedia entry. He worked on radio and started publishing Buddhist books in 1998. He founded a Buddhist journal called Inquiring Mind. He's written a lot of articles (151) in his journal.

Mindfulness can be about anything. 

What does Buddhism suggest is the best focus of mindfulness? You could have mindfulness of soccer or what excites you, or what bores you. Darth Vader is mindful of the fears of loss, and his greed and desire for control. I tend to think some people as on the Sith path, their mindfulness is skewed. Trump is mindful of what he can try to get away with, a weirdo who doesn't know how to get things the right way and thinks we should all love him for his transgressions. I feel like he's a captive of his imagined influence at this point, he's even more alienated from his true self by his success. He could use some wisdom, that's for sure.

The Four Foundations of Mindfulness are based on the Satipatthana Sutta. They break the 4 things down further, but you are supposed to be mindful of your body, feelings, mind and Dharma. 

So I begin this book. Nisker went to India in 1970 and did his first meditation retreat at the age of 28. He'd done some graduate work, been to therapy, and found himself on retreat near the Bodhi tree. He likes the Theravada tradition, though he quotes the Lotus Sutra to start the book, and he's not a monk. He likes sciences and the idea of nature. He's an American from California, and is into the lay sect of Theravadan Buddhism called IMS, Vipassana or insight meditation. 

I feel a bit cantankerous doubting his quote of the Buddha: "True happiness consists in eliminating the false idea of "I"."  He cites the Kindred Sayings, and he could list where in there he got it, but he doesn't. I search "true happiness" in the Samyutta Nikaya and don't find anything. At Sutta Central I search "true happiness" and I don't come up with his quote.   

I can't help but think of Larry "Doc" Sportello from Inherent Vice. Wes "Scoop" Nisker is like tuned into the cosmic mysteries like Doc, and Scoop is high on meditation, not grass. 

I believe all the things he believes, I do believe in this interconnection, nature and oneness. I'm not as bewitched by science, but I do think it has some interesting bolstering aspects. Noticing how people lack a real persuasive argument, he riffs off books he's read. He states his opinions, very little argument. Nisker was a radio personality in California, and he's got some good quips in his wikipedia page. I'm not sure when I became allergic to California hippy spirituality talk. I'm embarrassed by that, I'm going to force myself to read on. 

Why do I think the insistence on nature should reference Concord Transcendentalist, or more likely influence, the Taoist? Chinese wisdom is melded more with Taoism, it's not uncommon for the hermit poets of Tang dynasty China to reference Taoism some, and Buddhism some. I'm not some purist who doesn't allow for syncretism. I like Taoism since I took a class in 1986 at the University of Wisconsin. 

Maybe Scoop knows about the origins of ideas of nature but he just wants to write about it without labeling everything where it comes from. Perhaps that's my obsession. I feel like it's an unknowing smoosh of ideas. Scoop is one of those guys that quotes everything including the Bible in a book that seemed to purport to be the 4 foundations on Mindfulness. 

I am fascinated by the myths of Adam and Eve. We were whole but our consciousness or whatever caused us to not be happy. He remakes the garden of Eden into a garden of oneness, dualism is what has caused our fall.

He gives a history of the self. He quotes Julian JaynesPhilip Cushman and David Darling whom I'm not familiar with. He's really riffing off a lot of stuff, it's a sort of flight of ideas. He's building the west coast case to be less egotistical. He quotes Alan Watts, the philosophical entertainer. He brings up the phrase "resonating neuronal assemblies" as an example of something. He quotes Colin Tudge.

"The sacred is alive not just in us, but everywhere." So this is my problem with sacred, because if it's everything, everywhere, then it's a meaningless word. But that's perhaps superficial, the insight is that we can appreciate everything, or we can profane everything. To get profits at the cost of humanity is profane. To spread misinformation is profane. To see we are all connected and therefore we must think of others and be kind is making everything sacred. Maybe sacred and profane are verbs. Sacred is a mental state of appreciation, gratitude and humility. The act of realizing our connections makes things sacred. 

He quotes Ken Wilber. The quote about how an environmental ethics springs from the sacred. End of Chapter 1. My recommendation is to skip this chapter.

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Sunday, October 16, 2022

Why Is Buddhism True by Robert Wright

Part one: Culture riff

I'm listening to Why Buddhism Is True. He uses an objective scientific language to justy a secular Buddhism. He feels it is OK to take what works for Americans, not unlike colonialists who took resources from the third world, except this is the spiritual life and nobody is having anything taken from them. I don't mean to be so dismissive, I want to hear thoughts and experience from everywhere. But I am dismissing my qualms about reading this book.

In some ways I'm scared, because he's obviously just sharing his journey, without close contact with a teacher, or even community. He doesn't speak about a community of writer friends or editors or even people he hangs out with or meditates with. He goes to a meditation retreat, and basically is there by himself. How much can we figure out by ourselves without being modified by others?

Full disclosure. I really like Stephen Batchelor. I'm not afraid of being called a secular Buddhist. I think rebirth is true because people are born every day and it's not necessarily a personality, it's just birth, not really rebirth, but if you combine personality, circumstances, you could get a reincarnation of someone. I don't know and I'm open to the idea that it's like a candle flame passing from one wick to another. That's doesn't seem right because babies don't really seem to have anything, but OK. I'm willing to believe the Tulkus of Tibetan tradition all have the similar experience of having a fairly prescribed life, a concentration of teaching resources are put upon them, and their lifestyle leads to a certain kind of being. Whether it's literally true or not, the Tulku experience is going to be almost like a reincarnation or someone because they create the similar upbringings. Tibetans would not like their literal system to be contextualized like that, maybe. But if you're intellectually honest, you might not necessarily feel the same way about the sort of postulated assumptions and things you can verify. The belief in reincarnation is a cultural assumption, where as Godel's theorem is a mathematical proof. I can see the attractiveness and respect other's cultural assumptions without feeling obligated to think exactly the same way.

I read a lot of hate about secular Buddhism, how wrong headed it is, but the tradition that criticizes doesn't have explicit communication as a hallmark, so they won't really defend it in public. What you're missing out with secular Buddhism is unspeakable, behind closed doors. Maybe they are the same thing, just different personalities, who knows. I sometimes think the debate is silly, it's not a debate about real things, more a dislike of personalities, history and culture.

Infact the open source Buddhism versus the whispered tradition might be the difference between shamanism and mysticism and objective explicit knowledge. I could see teachers feeling a quiver in their being when asked to justify certain things in public. They can't, they're assumptions. Assumptions are important and useful and there's nothing wrong with making assumptions. For someone to ask, "why should I adopt these set of assumptions?" is something the secular Buddhists are saying. People can feel anger at that question if that is what arises, right? As long and you're polite, what you do when you feel anger is everything. Can you channel it for the good? Can you use your wrathful energy properly? 

The opposite side is kind of like sports people who say you can't talk about losing, that will jinx it. Imagining the possibility of losing and failure in sports will perhaps mess with an athlete, but fans don't have to concentrate with a winning attitude for the team to win. Infact inebriation and socializing seems more important to the fan. To imagine you need to focus to be a fan is to open up the door to being a fan, because you imagine yourself, you project yourself onto a team. You're there with them, even though it's a passive observation. You can't jinx the players on the field, you can only really just add your voice cheering, for whatever that is worth.

In a similar way the guru model of Vajrayana Buddhism is to not explicitly speak aloud. You speak differently to every person you talk to. It doesn't make good reading because there are often keys to unlocking Tantric texts that are only given out when a student is ready. Texts are supported in community. There is a kind of guarding of the tradition. It makes it precious and sacred.

The idea is to parse out teachings when the student is ready. The idea that westerners have spiritual indigestion because they are taking in too many rich foods, makes sense. A gradual and regulated approach. Maybe it's a fantasy of being exactly fed the right things in the spiritual life, but it could also be exactly the kindness articulated with the ideas of generosity in Buddhism. This line of thinking would also be against teaching perfection of wisdom at the start because it is a higher teaching and can also lead to ethical nihilism instead of spiritual transcendence in the wrong hands, in unready hands.

Shamanism is the cool guy who doesn't want to talk about how to be cool. It is the movie Hitch (2005), they want to guard their knowledge because that is what gives them power, but they also want to live off their insights. 

As the information age opens up knowledge to all people, there are some people that get really twisted up because they are isolated and don't have life experience to take things the right way, weigh them against other things and generally take things in proportion. Nothing is tailored to where they are at. That is why you get people going onto Reddit and saying they're having a really hard time "giving up attachments". The whole area and way of speaking about attachments is wrongheaded. The fruit of the practice is to let go of unhealthy commitments through insight. In Triratna that kind of way of talking is banished because it's unhelpful, the cart before the horse, grabbing the firebrand by the wrong end. This is one of the things that might lead to a guru approach. Many lone dog Buddhists will eventually quit because they can't get untwisted. They can't get the support they need to point them in the right direction, or even worse, they don't receive the help offered because they are not receptive.

The fantasy is that you can be oriented by someone else, and then you won't have to make too many course corrections. But what practicing in isolation has taught me, after a foundation in sangha with others, is that making your own course corrections is a vital part of the spiritual life. You're the best person to do that, most of the time. 

No extreme is ever the way, neither lone dogging it, nor subservient following. We need a mixture of self reliance and support. 

The Buddha went to two teachers to learn all they could teach. At a crucial point he went off on his own. And then after hanging with the the 5 ascetics, he even left them! They were mad when he left, they felt betrayed, they might have acted like a cult and not let him return. Somehow they felt he'd done something, so they gave him a chance, and he taught Kondanna the path. Thus the teachings were born, the teachings could be shared, they were not too personal, it wasn't an idiosyncratic result. You can be taught how to become enlightened. 

There's a lot missing in the Pali Canon because it's not a transcript. It's what the monks chanted for hundreds of years before the words were written down, and it's come to us 2500 years later, in translation. 

In 2022, they just corrected the idea that Chaucer was a rapist, by unsealing records in a salt mine in Cheshire from the 14th century. In 2012 they found Richard the 3rd body! He died in 1485! Today they're finding all kinds of amazing transcripts in Gundhara. Buddhist archaeology is finding amazing things every day it seems, recently they found a unexpected statue. Receding waters exposed underwater statues.

The Buddha died roughly around 483 BCE. Going that far back into the mist of time, so much is lost. What we have is amazing but hard to read because it's made for chanting and not a transcription. Now we have generalizations about decades, and decade playlists and discussions about trends in generations. It's hard to imagine back into time like this. Lineage is the faith dream of connection back to the Buddha.

The fantasy of lineage helps the Buddhist. My lineage goes back to the Buddha so it's the one true path. I get a lot of anger when I shatter that illusion. Like rebirth, it's an assumption of a group, one you need to be inside that group, but is obviously just an assumption when you're outside the group. Talking about it as an assumption is hidden knowledge, to be in the group you have to forbid exploring that question, because exposing it as an assumption devalues it. Some things must be unspoken.

This is why, in a way, we'll never transcend the cultic aspect of American politics. There are crucial ways in which people don't want to know things. My conservative Baptist relatives aren't interesting in challenging or even looking at the assumptions of their tribe. They are as true as living and breathing in the tribe. The tribe chooses a leader. The leader is to be followed and can't really be questioned. There is order and no fuzzy questions. I'm sure it's not as bleak as I present it, I love my relatives, and they may have a superior way of being that I have. 

Figuring things out in the tribe, inside the embedded but unexamined assumptions is what being in a sangha is, in part. You can't join the sangha until you agree to the rules of joining. You don't get teachings unless you do the proper dance with the teacher. If so-and-so isn't your guru and teacher, then you have no business in sharing the fruits of that group. The group may appear to be open and welcoming and even intellectually honest, but you must get inside to get the deeper truths and support. Everyone wants support, everyone needs support. It's the price of admission to the group. That is one take on sangha.

There's a kind of rugged individualism, and I don't think Sangharakshita appreciated this aspect of the American Transcendental movement. The writings are awful, so maybe that is what his distaste was for. They're trying to create a very authentic and complex sounding way of talking that is free from the hegemony of Puritanism by replacing it with nature and classical education, which is a deeper foundation than the (then) new theology of Puritanism. Schisms, sects, blasphemy are all just brand making and living making, with hyperbole and bombastic theology. It's the fight against chaos. What is a spiritual community if you can't be sure they all have the right beliefs?

The individual rejects the call to have to think certain ways, and it's the traditionalists in Buddhism that push the secular Buddhists away. You have to think this way about rebirth or you're not a Buddhist. Right view is their justification for that way of being. They won't even explicitly say it because examining it in the light of day would mean it was objective and could be examined. 

Robert Wright is writing this book about his experience, without a teacher and sangha guiding him, is exactly what the Buddhists inside traditional sangha will warn you against. You're going to go off the rails all by yourself. See how he goes wrong?! They never explicitly say how, nevermind that detail.

To the extent he does go off the rails is going to be explicit and something objective you can discuss, but in discussing it, you've already stepped outside the sangha. You're self reliant. Discussions inside the sangha are not shared. There are million spiritual communities all around the world privately discussing things all the time. 

People talk about information bubbles, I can only tolerate so much conservative oriented political talk because it just does not compute. I don't share the assumptions, and it's too jamming to always be trying to articulate why I don't share those assumptions. One of the problems of democracy is it's profounding destabilizing to constantly be debating assumptions. We need common ground.

We're getting better at tolerating the disorientations of others, but I would argue that is at the heart of rejecting multiculturalism. Nobody is going to convince someone else to have a different personality. Everyone emphasizes both aspects of each party, but the major emphasis, is what makes the political party. In a way it's so confusing because I believe, in the abstract, many of the principles of republicans, I would just not exercise them that way, in those cases, for those decisions.

In the same confusing way that secular Buddhism and open source Buddhism is in conflict with traditional Buddhism, because our spiritual life is profoundly subjective. In the age of information, that can be quite annoying. We're not sure how to take subjective knowledge. "True for you" isn't really how we like our truths, we tend to prefer them universal and objective. We fancy all of ours are universal and objective. 

Because I have a daughter that asks questions I have a lot of weird knowledge at the moment. Some sharks lay eggs inside themselves and then they hatch inside the mother, and then they give birth to the shark later. 

The deepest well into the earth was 8km (5 miles) and cost $100 million dollars. 

We know the algorithm setting rent prices in NYC, that are counter intuitively raising rents during a near recession, and people leaving the city because of high rents. It comes from the company RealPage from Texas and is called YieldStar (source). (End of random "knowledge".)

Humanity was always asking what are the right assumptions and what do we really need to know? What should we teach children? Read, writing and arithmetic hasn't really been improved on. Religion takes on a portion of these questions. Science has stolen some of them, made it smaller, and maybe put it in it's right place as an assumption for personal psychology. Philosophy, public and objective, have taken some more. Analytical philosophy is boring, I like continental philosophy, that includes literature.

My grandfather asked me when I told him I was an atheist, "how will you know what is right and wrong?" Sure, adopting a boiler plate platform of ethics can simplify things, but still the ten precepts are really quite vague in a way, and don't really settle any problems. Utilitarianism is either simple enough to use in every case, or is so needlessly complicated that it is no longer useful for the everyman. 

The Vietnam War broke American society. The metaphysical threat of the domino theory was too abstract and perhaps wrongheaded. It opened things up for examination and questioning of assumptions. It was a profoundly difficult time that makes some people cling to tradition because of a profound feeling of disorder. My grandfather threw my mother's Bob Dylan record out the window. I have the feeling my grandfather had in those days, in our present times. Things seem out of whack. Two men in road rages shot each other's daughters (People). What the fuck is going on?

Now the metaphysical threat is climate change, and the right is denying that as the threat. One side sees disharmony in racism and culture wars, the other side sees disharmony in lack of traditionalism. Meanwhile the Alaskan crabs have left an area because of climate change.

In that opening up, in a time of profound chaos and disillusionment, was a flourishing of art and a willingness to allow in foreign influences like Buddhism. What are these times disillusioning us from?

In some ways Biden is the FDR of our times, passing sweeping legislation to the shagrin of people who only want government for police and military, to reinforce the order that is increasingly unfair. There's a lot of, "off with their heads," talk, and anger at challenged assumptions. 

The reason the 20's won't be like the 60's/70's is that conservatives have power now, and the left hasn't seized control yet, but the swing is coming. That's why the right is increasingly cheating in elections, questioning elections they don't like. 

Democracy can also have people voting for the end of democracy, in a bizarre twist. Unlike the 70's education isn't cheap, the American dream isn't being fostered by veterans who want a more calm stable life after surviving the depression and a just war. Populist politicians are gaming the information age by lying and appealing to a nefarious culture war. The information age has come to white supremacists and anti-democratic forces. Income disparity is widening the middle class has disappeared. So what is the society we're losing that we cling to? It's already gone and it never existed.

An untethered, untaught writer sharing his tales out of sangha, with backup in scientific writings, will stir up a lot of people, though mostly the best response to something you don't like is to just ignore it. Don't read it. Keep it moving.

Even sports results are surprising. Braves lost to the Phillies in the 2022 MLB playoffs? Nobody saw that coming. A huge argument about the national soccer team is about the coach trusting players he's found success with in the past, and players that are clearly in better form and are outplaying them directly, like Brandon Vazquez running past Aaron Long to score the winning goal for Cincinnati to beat Unhealthy Energy Drink sponsored team. Aaron Long is on the USA team and roundly criticized. Brandon Vazquez isn't on the team and had an amazing season. People who care about the national team are pulling out their hair because the coach has been hired by his brother, and that would be fine if he were a great coach, but he's a hugely controversial coach, and everyone is second guessing his choices. Sports drama is a nice diversion from real life drama where fathers shoot each other's daughter in road rage (People).

So that is why Robert Wright's book is so dangerous, different, interesting and confusing, for me at least.

Some people want heresy trials in Burma, want these entrenchings of tradition, enforced belief. If some secular American journalist can trumpet the virtues of Buddhism, and speak about his experiences beyond the reach of traditional Buddhist courts, what else can happen?

With a penchant for action, the republicans are busing immigrants to progressive cities. Forget asking the question "how should these people be distributed in our country?" Just distribute them to other people. They can't appeal to a federal policy because they don't like the federal government, despite all the money they get from them.


Leonard Cohen poem from Book of Longing:

(The poem represents proprietary attitude in a teacher, not open source, a sort of exclusive relationship.)


Part 2

Wright does actually talk about his teachers at IMS in Barre Massachusetts, and he does quote fellow meditators. I honestly really like this book, it reminds me of an article I once wrote about teaching mindfulness in a women's prison. 

That people are offended by this book, well, I don't think they really read it. But was that just a story I concocted in my head? I went back and read the old reddit posts from 3 years ago. It came out 5 years ago. Hardly anything negative. 5 years ago. Not much negative. Why was I so afraid of this book. They even talk about the resistance to the book.

My friend who's retired only listens to books now. I like listening because I feel like I need to train my auditory skills. And when you space out, it keeps reading, where as when I space out reading, I just put the book down or reread what I missed. Maybe that's why I'm not reading as much any more. Anyway, audio books are another interesting tool in this changing world we live in.

Also note, I really liked Wright's book on Evolutionary Psychology, The Moral Animal. (I don't think he makes up his titles.)

I don't think research can prove to me what I already know that meditation, sangha, Dharma study, devotion and ethics are right for me. But nonetheless see research below. I'll add on anything I find to this post.


Links on research:

Natural high:  “New research from the University of Utah finds that a mindfulness meditation practice can produce a healthy altered state of consciousness in the treatment of individuals with addictive behaviors."

(Published 2nd draft 10/16, edited 3rd draft 10/17/22 11am, 4th draft (part 2): 10/18) Last edited 4/4/23.

Saturday, October 15, 2022

How I know I'm not enlightened

I make gaffs and say things that upset people. I still have the desire to get attention through provocative actions because I need attention, and I say outlandish things sometimes.

In relationships with people who are family, they are often quite frustrated with my limitations and oversights, blind spots, and mistakes. My daughter teaches me how unenlightened I am. My exes teach me how unenlightened I am. My parents teach me how unenlightened I am. My aunts and uncles, cousins, siblings teach me how unenlightened I am. I think about how the first person the Buddha saw after getting enlightened said, "maybe so," as he walked away. Would you really notice if someone was enlightened. I think most of the awe you feel around a more developed person is mostly projection, but I do think you can feel when someone has something awesome too. 

Sometimes I play chess after I meditate, and I often lose. I wouldn't imagine a Buddha would automatically be good at chess, but what makes me know I'm not enlightened is that I get upset when I lose, and I feel really elated when I win. My reaction to winning or losing tells me I'm not enlightened. My desire to play chess itself is perhaps another signal. Infact my daily activity pretty much proves I'm not enlightened. I read and write, tend to my daughter, play chess, watch TV. I'm not always meditating, building sangha, studying the Dharma, chanting and puja, doing good for others, working on myself.

I haven't put in the work to become enlightened. When the Buddha got enlightened he meditated for a week to consolidate and enjoy it. I've never meditated for a week, I have a hard time breaking an hour. I have felt some pretty intense experiences of feeling pretty lofty in my meditation, but mostly I'm riddled with hindrances. I have some level of concentration, but I don't think I can concentrate and develop enough lasting insight. 

My ethics is pretty bad throughout my life. I've put particular emphasis on it, but honestly I still have a long way to go on tightening up my ethical conduct. I'm not going to go into confession right now, but lets just take me at my word, that I'm not ethically evolved enough to be enlightened, and in my life I've done some real whoppers that sort of really emphasize my lack of enlightenment. I'm not saying I don't make an effort to be ethical or that I'm never successful. The other day I paid a woman's tab at the ice cream truck because her card didn't work. I'm pretty poor and couldn't really afford that, but I did that anyway because I just want to be nice sometimes. Generosity isn't just an abstract ideal, I actually have to do it. 

It's not a slight on me that I'm not enlightened. There are times where I've felt superior, and I've read that sometimes spiritual practice can make people feel superior, so I think about how I need to be other focused and not get obsessed with my own spiritual progress, another form of spiritual bypassing I engage in. Spiritual bypassing is the hope that if you can nail down the spiritual life, everything else will be easy. That might be true in some respects, but I don't think you can skip some steps in life, and you need to do psychological work, do all sorts of work that is unrelated to the spiritual life to in fact lay the groundwork to advance in the spiritual life.

If I was enlightened it wouldn't be so hard for me to get out of bed and meditate in the morning. I would just slip into dhyana and bliss out. Instead what I get is the rag and bone shop of thoughts. I have not purified my mind enough through the hard work. 

I'm not sure even what enlightenment is. I've read it's mostly defined negatively. It's not this or that. I'm not sure if it's nothing special like some Zen people say or if it really is a radical kind of opening up, opening out, and self liberation. I'm not even sure if I'm really on the path laid out by the Buddha 2500 years ago, I keep reading things I've never heard before. Seems like I should know these things.

So in the department of slow news day, I'm announcing my lack of enlightenment. 



Friday, October 14, 2022

Fruits of the practice according to Buddhaghosa

"Pleasant dwelling in the happiness of truth in the present life; enjoyment of all objects through investigation; acquisition of worldly knowledge; the attainment of perfection." (p. 40 Path of Freedom)


Dwelling in happiness is like heaven on earth or living in the pure land. The happiness research can plug into this but it's separate. There are objective non-Buddhist things people do to achieve happiness, and those things have been studied. It's kind of like asking not how to do I overcome my problems, but what could I do to be happy. It might be a form of bypassing, it might be a form of burying your head in the sand, and it might be something only for the rich, but anyway, there's a lot of research into it. Emotional intelligence is often said to be a key component, more important than education or intelligence. Money can give you a greater sense of independence (source). Some people think gut health is the secret to happiness.

The Buddhist path is quite austere and involves a lot of support, space and meditation. 

Buddhaghosa explains, "At first I was a naked ascetic; I did not move my body or open my mouth for seven days and seven nights; I sat in silence enwrapped in bliss." This is the meaning, in the Noble Teaching, of 'pleasant dwelling in the happiness of truth in the present life'."


"Enjoying of all objects through investigation" is a kind of wisdom of equality and quite a level of resolution and integration.

Buddhaghosa explains, "a yogin acquires concentration and is not hindered by objects."


"acquisition of worldly knowledge": What? That's kind of a surprise. You mean you can't survive just on Buddhist knowledge alone? 

Buddhaghosa explains, "Acquisition of worldly knowledge' means that one having acquired concentration, develops the five faculties of knowledge, namely, psychic power, divine ear, knowledge of others' thoughts, recollection of past existences, and the divine eye. Therefore, the Blessed One has declared: "With concentrated mind one is able to change one's body at will. Thus one produces psychic power in the various modes."

Huh? I guess I thought that stuff might be a fruit, but it's not really something you play with. I need to think more about this.


"attainment of perfection": As someone who has identified aspects of perfectionist, this kind of talk makes me anxious. Of course it's an easy put down to point out how not close to perfection a perfectionist is. When I was introduced to the topic, I began to see it everywhere. My grandfather showing me wedding photos where he pointed out the flaws in tailoring. It's basically the critical mind that is so useful to humans, but also so nerve wracking. Buddhaghosa isn't afraid to talk of purity and perfection. He's pointing at something. My modern ears twitch at the words, but he's pointing at something. It's the ultimate level, I think, the top, the highest attainments. There is something higher, something deeper, something more, hard to imagine for someone like me, but I do like a good challenge.

I like it that he says you become "perfect gradually", that's feels like an infinite number approaching a limit.

Buddhaghosa explains, "'The attainment of perfection' means that one having a concentrated mind, although one has yet to reach the stage of the learning-ender, may not fall back at all. One gains (a good) reward through concentration. One attains to 'the form', 'the formless' and to perfection." (p. 41)


Eight mental states that prevent concentration: lust, hatred, indolence, rigidity, agitation, uncertainty, delusion, absence of joy and bliss.


"eight states are causes: renunciation, non-hatred, brightness, non-disturbedness, all skilful states, sustained application of thought, gladness, and those states that arouse knowledge of the truth."


7 requisites: "virtue, contentment, shielding of the faculties, moderation in drink and food, not sleeping in the first, middle and last watches of the night, the being intent on wisdom and a calm and quiet dwelling-place."


Good lists, but I fear I'm not as evolved as I need to be to interpret all this.



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Saturday, October 08, 2022

Vimuttimagga and Visuddhimagga



If I waited till I fully grok a text, I would never write, and that might be the best thing, but I find value in expressing incomplete thoughts, and efforts. The is a public diary that I edit as I go along.

The Vimuttimagga is an ancient text purportedly written by the arahant Upatissa. The Visuddhimagga is written by Buddhaghosa. These two works are often spoken together. I say them over and over again to differentiate them.

The Path of Freedom, an alternate name for the Vimuttimagga, was lost in the original Pali, it is translated back from a surviving Chinese translation.

Wikipedia: "Gunaratana further notes that Buddhaghosa invented several key meditation terms which are not to be found in the suttas, such as "parikamma samadhi (preparatory concentration), upacara samadhi (access concentration), appanasamadhi (absorption concentration)." Gunaratana also notes that the Buddhaghosa's emphasis on kasina-meditation is not to be found in the suttas, where dhyana is always combined with mindfulness. Bhikkhu Sujato has argued that certain views regarding Buddhist meditation expounded in the Visuddhimagga are a "distortion of the Suttas" since it denies the necessity of jhana."

Interesting sectarian note: "Despite the general belief that he was Indian by birth, he later may have been claimed by the Mon people of Burma as an attempt to assert primacy over Sri Lanka in the development of Theravada tradition."

"According to Maria Heim, he is "one of the greatest minds in the history of Buddhism" and British philosopher Jonardon Ganeri considers Buddhaghosa "a true innovator, a pioneer, and a creative thinker." Yet, according to Buddhadasa, Buddhaghosa was influenced by Hindu thought, and the uncritical respect for the Visuddhimagga has even hindered the practice of authentic Buddhism."


Quote: Vimuttimagga on virtue: "The destruction of sense desires by renunciation (is virtue). This virtue can remove evil. It is the 'virtue of volition', the 'virtue of restraint', the 'virtue of abstention'. The destruction of ill will by not-ill will, the destruction of rigidity and torpor by the perception of brightness, the destruction of agitation and anxiety by non-distraction, the destruction of uncertainty by the determination of states, the destruction of ignorance by knowledge, the destruction of discontent by gladness, the destruction of the five hindrances by the first meditation"

p.9-10: ""Anger, malice, hypocrisy, agitation, covetousness, jealousy, wile, craftiness, resentment, disputatiousness, pride, self-conceit, arrogance, negligence, idleness, lust, non-contentment with little, not following the wise, non-mindfulness, harsh speech, evil companionship, evil knowledge, evil views, impatience, want of faith, immodesty, indecorum, indulgence of body mouth and palate, vulgarity, contact with women, not honouring the teacher, non-practice of restraint of the senses, non-practice of concentration in the first and last watches of the night, not reciting the discourses in the first and last watches of the night—these thirty-four states are 'obstacles'." (p. 9-10 Path of Freedom)

p.39: "Concentration means that one has purity of mind, endeavours steadfastly, dwells with the truth having the benefit of tranquillity and is not distracted. This is called concentration. And again, it means not allowing one's mind to be bent by the strong wind of passion. It is comparable to the unflickering flame of the lamp behind the palace. It is said in the Abhidhamma thus: "What fixes the mind aright, causes it to be not dependent on any, causes it to be unmoved, undisturbed, tranquillized and non-attached, and rightens the faculty of concentration and the power of concentration is called concentration.""

p. 40: "'What is 'meditation' ? It is to contemplate on reality, to remove resentment, to make the mind happy, to discard the hindrances, to gain freedom, to equalize, to arouse concentration skilfully, to acquire liberation, to dwell in right observance, to wish to arouse concentration and to aspire to possess freedom."


Copies Vimuttimagga:

Read online

PDF Translated from the Chinese by Rev. N.R.M. Ehara, Soma Thera, and Kheminda Thera

PDF of the copy I'm reading from 1961

PDF The Open Buddhist University


Visuddhimagga 

Access to insight version by Nanamoli 1975


Links: Vimuttimagga in Encyclopedia of Buddhism

Link to read the ancient biography of Buddhaghosa called Buddhaghosuppatti, which says he was from India and came to Sri Lanka, and has more the air of a legendary account. The Mahāvaṃsa, which is earlierdescribes him as a Vedic scholar who is converted in debate by Revata. There are no corroborating accounts.



Bhikkhu Bodhi quote

"the ethics of early Buddhism do not offer blanket solutions to all the complex predicaments of the human situation. Perhaps that was never their intention—perhaps their intention was to issue guidelines rather than proclaim moral absolutes, to posit ideals even for those who cannot perfectly fulfill them." Venerable Bhikkhu Bodhi



Sunday, October 02, 2022

Tara

I've been saying the Tara mantra while walking home from dropping my daughter off from school. Then when I get home, I finish off the 108 mantras looking at the image of Tara on my wall. 

I've seen a tanka with like a zillion Taras on it. I'd like an old woman Tara image, but I can't find one. I've found some images of women who could serve as model for a more mature woman. I'm not sure if I'm on board with impossibly round breasts, though I know she is 16. It's kind of fun to look at all the various versions you can see on the internet. I'm afraid it also attracts some people who kind of skirt around going deeper into Buddhism, but I'm disinclined to put down people's journeys. There's a kind of person who's into female goddesses, good for them.

My daughter loves rainbows, and I like it that her skirt is rainbow colored. In Vessantara's descriptions rainbows are whispering Tara's mantra. The mantra actually feels kind of long and wasn't my favorite. I like Avalokiteshvara, Amitabha, Shakyamuni, Amoghasiddhi, and Padmasambhava mantras. Not sure why I like those mantras, and this one less. 

I really enjoy the 21 Tara praise. I will admit that I sat for the first time for 40 minutes in a while. I have begun piecing together my own practice sheet cobbled together from everything I've learned.



Wooten discusses anger in the best way I’ve ever read. She doesn’t say it’s always bad and notices how we’re conditioned to not express or admit it. She discussed it from a woman’s perspective.


links:



Red Tara: Om Tare Tam Soha.


Mantra from Dharma Refuge, Rochester NY.



Vessantara visualization excerpt: 

Out of the lake of tears rises a pastel blue lotus flower, of an extraordinary delicacy. A stream of tears falls into the soft heart of the lotus and transforms it into a white full-moon disc slowly, just above the surface of the moon disc, jade green light appears. Its outlines become more definite, without gaining any solidity. We are watching the birth of a princess, a goddess, a Bodhisattva. She is jade green in color, clad in a rainbow skirt, with a meditation sash tied around her body. She is decked in precious jewels: bracelets, armlets, anklets, necklaces, ear-rings, and a tiara of gems. She is seated, her left foot resting on her right thigh in meditation posture. Her right foot steps down gracefully and as it does so a small pastel blue lotus and moon mat rise out of the lake to make a footrest. Her right arm reaches down, the back of her hand resting on her right knee. Her palm is open in a mudra of supreme giving. Her left hand is held in front of her heart, palm outwards, the thumb and ring finger together, so that the other three fingers point upwards. This mudra bestows protection and fearlessness through invoking the Three Jewels. Her thumb and ring finger delicately grasp the stem of a lotus flower, which curves upwards to open into a spray of blossoms by her left shoulder. There is a bud, a half opened flower and a fully opened blossom of pale blue. She is sixteen years old, full-breasted with flowing black hair. She is supremely beautiful. Her apparitional birth complete, her jade eyelids open for the first time to reveal two perfect blue eyes, identical to those from which she was born. She looks out over the world and the lake of tears, and upward to the while cloud of compassion far above her, and her face breaks into a smile of such beauty and tenderness that the whole world trembles with joy.

Wikipedia:

As Green Tārā she offers succor and protection from all the unfortunate circumstances one can encounter within the samsaric world. As White Tārā she expresses maternal compassion and offers healing to beings who are hurt or wounded, either mentally or psychically. As Red Tārā she teaches discriminating awareness about created phenomena, and how to turn raw desire into compassion and love. As Blue Tārā (Ekajati) she expresses a ferocious, wrathful, female energy whose invocation destroys all Dharmic obstacles that engender good luck and swift spiritual awakening.


November 1st Rachael Stevens comes out with Red Tara. If you'd rather read her Ph.D dissertation you can read that.


Tara has a tiara on her head that has the colors of the Buddha families, and the various colors of the Buddhas determine the flavor Tara gives.