Monday, October 30, 2023

I have a tiny Buddha statue somewhere in my kitchen. I have many Buddhas throughout my house. My daughter tells me she believes in god and she's not a Buddhist, which is fine, it's her journey, but I'm also going to teacher her hopefully, through my exemplification, about Buddhism. She was excited to find this tiny Buddha. She wondered if she should put it on my shrine. Even if she doesn't embrace the outward showings of devotion of mine, she knows what my shrine is. I've offered to help her create a sacred space with anything she wants, it doesn't have to have some guy, it could have a woman idol. She declined so far but I'm hoping someday she creates a sacred space of things that are meaningful for her, where she can go to center herself or reflect. I think she doesn't really understand the order of the home and the places things go in, but then she finds things and asks if they go somewhere else, and I usually tell her to just put it back where it was, but she's got a sense that things have a place and it's not just chaos, in the home. There was a leaf she picked because it was beautiful. It's been a while and it's not quite a beautiful. I want to throw it away, but give her the choice, shrine or garbage? She picks shrine. I feel silly for imagining she would make the choice I wanted. 

I'm making retreat oatmeal. For some reason my whole life I had boring oatmeal, and then on retreat, I learned you could put all kinds of nuts and fruits into it, and yogurt (vegan) and it was really yummy.



Saturday, October 21, 2023

P.27 Self Compassion by Neff

“It is not only Westerners who are harshly judgmental toward them-selves, of course. We recently conducted a study in the United States, Thailand, and Taiwan and found that in Taiwan-_where there is a strong Confucian ethic there is also strong belief in self-criticism as a motivating force. The Confucian ideal is that you should criticize yourself in order to keep yourself in line focusing on meeting the needs of others instead of yourself. In countries where Buddhism plays a stronger role in daily life, such as Thailand, people are much more self-compassionate. In fact, in our cross-cultural study we found that people had the highest levels of self-compassion in Thailand and the lowest in Taiwan, with the United States falling in between. In all three countries, however, we found that self-criticism was strongly related to depression and dissatisfaction with life. It appears that the negative impact of self-criticism may be universal, even though different cultures encourage it to a greater or lesser degree.”



She cites her scales, which she validated and published an article about her self-compassion scales.

Wednesday, October 18, 2023

Anapanasati

When I first got into Buddhism 20 or so years ago, I read there was an abbot in Flushing who's thing was to read the Diamond Sutra over and over, once every day. A reading practice.

This morning I decided to read the Anapanasati sutta every day for a while.


Visakha: "Visakha later convinced Migara to see the Buddha, which led to him reaching sotapanna (stream entry), a stage of enlightenment. Migara was so grateful for Visakha helping him reach a stage of enlightenment he declared her his spiritual mother, earning her the nickname Migāramāta, or "Migara's mother".

So Visakha convinced another benefactor to pursue the path and he got his mind blown, and had an amazing spiritual career, and he traced it back to her hipping him to the path, and connecting him with the right people. I can't imagine he didn't give it all away and join the wandering monks. Or else maybe he joined the 3 month rain retreat every year, and then the other 9 months he was a regular bloke. It doesn't say. And the other monks nicknamed Visakha as Migara's mother, because her referral caused all that. She was given some glory of his attainments, an appreciation of what he did, was also reflected back on her. You can see how the system of patronizing was fostered through showing the benefactor how great it was that they supported the monks, what they made possible with their generosity.  

The Buddha has done the 3 months rains retreats at the Eastern Monastery, which was sponsored by Visakha. It has gone so well, he decides to stay another month and gives the teaching for July, after being there May, August and June. They followed a lunar calendar in those days, and the phases of the moon, marked the week. The elder monks gave instructions. There were a lot of monks, but calculating the numbers seems difficult. 10+20+30+40 equals 100 monks being instructed, and we don't know how big the team of instructors is, though there are 9 leading disciples listed and the Buddha, so at least 110 monks at the Eastern Monastery or Pūrvārāma Monastery in Shravasti, more than 2,500 years ago. It says there were mother monks, so more than 131 monks. 150 is a nice round number, so probably not exactly that many. But the sutra says "some" which could be multiples. There could be 2, 3, 4, 5 of each group. It was like you start out with 10, then move to 20. There was a real ranking system, and you could imagine there were explicit criteria for moving from teaching one group to another. It could have been 750 people in the monastery. Seems unlikely to feed all those people even if they're partially enlighten, peaceful and didn't eat a whole lot. They'd done 3 months and were kicking it out for a 4th. Seems really intense.

(It's a 4 hour car drive from Lucknow. It's over $500 for one way flights to Lucknow, and under $900 round trip from NYC. There's a stupa to Angulimala, and Jetavana grove is there too. I see no remains of Pūrvārāma Monastery, but Jetavana monastery archaeological site can be seen in photos online. This was also where the Buddha had 3 residences when he was growing up. Anathapindika is the patron of Jetavana monastery, so maybe there were two big monasteries close to each other? "Visakha founded the temple Migāramātupāsāda" and Pūrvārāma Monastery. With two big monasteries, I would say Shravasti was a real center of early Buddhism, and set the precedent of benefactors, merit and generosity. Visakha and Anathapindika are held in reverence as the original benefactors. The Anandabodhi tree is in Jetavana grove to this day.)

They were content. But not just content, they were content in their hearts. You could probably infinitely expand it, they were content in their heart of hearts. It wasn't just contentment, it was beyond contentment. They were worthy of being supported by the community. To give a gift to this community was a special kind of amazingly great generosity. To host and support such a retreat was to give the best thing ever. I'm going to say it, it was a pure land.

There was no idle chatter. They were no psychoanalysing each other with free association, they were all quiet. They went about the day on retreat, eating so they could meditate and study, stay focused on this one particular meditate practice that flows from 16 stages of contemplation from focusing on the breath, through body awareness and calming, through rapture and joy, through underingstanding the conditionality of mental processes, though calming and gladdening, getting deeper in concentration and steadying the mind. There was liberation and insight, disentanglement and detachment, cessation and relinquishing. It wasn't just counting the breath, there was some intense application of ideas into meditative experience, listening and cultivating. 

I'm not going to go into the chief disciples: Ven. Sariputta, Ven. Maha Moggallana, Ven. Maha Kassapa, Ven. Maha Kaccana, Ven. Maha Kotthita, Ven. Maha Kappina, Ven. Maha Cunda, Ven. Revata, Ven. Ananda.

The Buddha ranks and describes attainments of those present. Arhats, anagami, sakadagami and sotapathana. There are levels of enlightenment that has to do with how many fetters have been broken and weakened. They're also called stream entrant, once returner, non-returner and arhant. Once you enter the stream, you will eventually get enlightened.

The lists below are a clear reference to the Satipatthana sutta, which will be my next obsession, after this one, and all the teachings, which like Indra's net, the goddess of creation, reflects and intensifies each jem, each jem reflects light back onto every other jem in potentially an infinite runaway:

Four foundations of mindfulness: Body, feeling, mind and Dharma

Four right exertions: stop unskillful mental states, snuff out unskillful arisen mental states, cause skillful mental states, maintain and strengthen skillful mental states.

Four bases of success: Keen interest, persistence, wholeheartedness, and careful to make adjustment and corrections in the path, they saw how to detect the need for adjustments and found the ways to do these adjustments.

Five faculties: Faith, persistence, mindfulness, concentration and wisdom.

Five strengths are the lack of the opposites of the five faculties.

Seven factors of awakening: Rosenberg suggests going through these while contemplating the body.

8 fold path: Right understanding, righ aspiration, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, right concentration.

Brahma Viharas: Universal loving kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity.

Mindfulness of breathing develops the four foundations of mindfulness and leads to the seven factors of awakening, and they lead to perfect insight and awakening. The various lists guide the realization when understood correctly, practiced with zeal and supported by others. Then after 3 months, they really focused on anapanasati for a month.

The meditation setup: go to the wilderness, to the shade of a tree, or to an empty building, sits down folding his legs crosswise, holding his body erect, and setting mindfulness to the fore. Always mindful, he breathes in; mindful he breathes out.

Dropping my daughter off at school, I do a walking meditation home, to set mindfulness to the fore so that when I get home, I can meditate.

16 stages:

1&2. Know the quality of the breath: long or short

3. Sensitive to the body while breathing.

4. Calming body while breathing.

5. Sensitive to rapture.

6. Sensitive to pleasure.

7. Sensitive to mental processes.

8. Calming mental processes.

9. Sensitive to mind.

10. Gladdening the mind.

11. Steadying the mind.

12. Liberating the mind.

13. Focus on impermanence.

14. Focusing on fading away.

15. Focusing on cessation. 

16. Focusing on relinquishment.


There's something about the way Kamalashila describes it that makes it come alive for me. You can read Breath by Breath by Rosenberg. And Buddhadasa's Mindfulness of Breathing is also a book about anapanasati, he taught Larry Rosenberg. I'm currently reading Analayo's book Mindfulness of Breathing. This is a the kind of Buddhist books I really dig. The more takes I have on all this the better. This is one of the things I can go over and over and over. 


The sutra goes through the 16 stages 2 more times. My hope in reading it over and over is that I'll figure out what that is all about, or whether it's just the oral tradition liked to repeat things. You're more likely to remember a sutta if you way it over 3 times instead of just one.

They add in "subduing greed and distress" that gets more and more intense. To me, I feel like that's cutting out all sort of neurotic wanting, and overcoming the trauma that makes one want more and more, the extra from they're actually getting. 

"...with reference to the world," to me seems to be saying, you're able to apprehend what the world is actually giving you, so that you don't really have room for greed, and you're not out of distress, wanting more to make yourself feel better.


Links to translations:

Wikipedia

p. 198 in Breath by Breath by Larry Rosenberg doesn't attribute the translation, so it must be his. I have a hard copy of this book that came out in 1998.

Access To Insight

BuddhaNet (pdf)

BCBS cheat sheet

Gil Fronsdal translation (pdf)

Sujato translation

Bhikkhu Bodhi translation

Plum Village


Student notes from Vaddhaka (Triratna)



Audio Readings:

YouTube Bhante Vimalaramsi, don't really know much about him, but he has a particular take on anapanasati, not endorsing it, just like all information and perspectives. 

Vimalaramsi makes an interesting point that thinking is a sense pleasure.


Ajahn Brahmavamso's 2 hour talk.


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Monday, October 16, 2023

Metta

I can't remember when that retreat was.

I went on a Brahma Vihara retreat in 2002, and I fell in love with metta meditation. Lately I've really been liking anapanasati, so now I can empathize with people who feel like metta meditation is a chore. I don't get that feeling in my head like I'm coming out of warp speed. That feeling might be an illusion, a pleasurable experience I grasp at. 

Metta Monday is the way to go. At least once a week. Better yet, today I'll also do compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity. That's a lot of meditation. Sometimes I do an hour meditation where I do them all laying down. What a wonderful thing, 20 stages, 3 minutes each. I'm not really into complicated meditation apps that lose my data and are really designed as money makers, but you might have to resort to one of those for that meditation.

I'm working on self compassion with the Kristin Neff book. She's the expert. I like the way she put it, self compassion has all the good elements of working on self esteem, without the bad elements. Working on self esteem can easily go wrong, but compassion can't. Compassion is an aspect of metta. It's just a joyous feeling at others well being too. I think of myself sledding as a kid, I used to really enjoy that. Simple joy and well being. Wishing that on others and myself. 

A near and dear friend in this day and age can be hard. Society has gotten a little more reserved since Covid. That might be a good thing, in some ways. It can just be someone you'd like to get to know better too. There's plenty of those people around if you hang out with sangha. There's a natural tendency to focus on sangha folk. 

The neutral I call Rando. Someone at the grocery store, just to get an image, but then I start thinking about the grocery store, and that stirs up a lot of feelings. My grocery store doesn't stock the things I like, they run out of them. Things come in groups, and I just like the one thing, but they don't stock up the other parts. I like one kind of samosa, because it's vegan, but there are all these chicken ones. I like a vegan mac and cheese, but they don't stock it any more. And on and on. I think about how Thoreau's mother survived the summer without summer when she was pregnant, because she didn't drink coffee or tea. 

I call the sort of delinquent kid near me Malfoy. There are difficult adults, but I don't hold out much hope for their change, but I'm hoping my metta can get into Malfoy. 

Spreading metta around the world, and out into the universe. I try not to get all caught up in all the amazing photography. I think the reason we haven't been visited by aliens is the distance. Those scifi shots of space ships with stars whizzing by, well I don't believe them. They make the stars too close together. 

Tuesday, October 10, 2023

Paramartha

 


From Sallie King's Buddha Nature.

This got me reading about Paramartha. He was quite a force of spreading the Dharma, with some real struggles to overcome, and interestingly is paired with Xuanzang, who was similarly impressive in his travels and translatoins, and I guess criticized Paramartha some, and got me thinking of another pair in Buddhist history like Kukai and Saicho in Japan, later.

I've been wanting to read Awakening of Faith, even if Paramartha might not have written it. 

She mentions Zhiyi and Fazang too, interesting historical Buddhists down the road in China. It's interesting to see how spellings have changed since 1991 when Buddha Nature came out. 

Paramartha added in Buddha nature onto translations, something that wouldn't be done today:



Thursday, October 05, 2023

Museum photos 2

These are panels from a stupa from dating from 200 BCE to 400 CE From Bharhut Great Stupa and Piprahwa stupa. This art is later than the Ashoka pillars (260 BCE), and later than the Sanchi Stupa No. 2 (2nd century BCE). 

The exhibit has borrowed from many museums to bring this exhibit together. You can check out the large print explanations. If you can go see the exhibition in person, it's fantastic. 







Macalania: The audio section starts here. The protective naga. A tree, perhaps were the buddha was enlightened?




Mountain Climbers!





Yaksha




The yaksha is giving life to plant life. This mythology is pre-Buddha. Sources of luck and prosperity. The area of India is reliant the monsoons. Rain clouds are life giving. The monks appropriate the role of rainmakers to boost their power and role in society. 





The goddess of abundance...
































 


All these relief rocks come from stupas:




Museum photos

 Maitreya



Mahavairocana.



Partying with the Buddha?





There are stone faces of an ancient ornate stupa. This one has Maculinda, a theme of quite a few relics on this exhibit, Tree & Serpent, at the Met. Awesome show.


This one is a presentation of the Buddha's crown. 








The wheel of the Dharma was turned when:

The Blessed One then asked again, “Kaundinya, did you understand? did you understand?”

Kaundinya replied, “Blessed One, I understood.  I understood.”

“Since venerable Kaundinya has understood the Dharma, he shall now be known as Ajnatakaundinya - the Kaundinya who understood.” (source)