Friday, December 30, 2022

Poem

Want the change by Rainer Maria Rilke

(English version by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy)

Want the change. Be inspired by the flame
where everything shines as it disappears.
The artist, when sketching, loves nothing so much
as the curve of the body as it turns away.

What locks itself in sameness has congealed.
Is it safer to be gray and numb?
What turns hard becomes rigid
and is easily shattered.

Pour yourself out like a fountain.
Flow into the knowledge that what you are seeking
finishes often at the start, and, with ending, begins.

Every happiness is the child of a separation
it did not think it could survive. And Daphne, becoming
a laurel,
dares you to become the wind.



source

Tuesday, December 27, 2022

Schadenfreude

I'm so slow, I make connections at a glacial pace. I was thinking about how I actually enjoy that that woman who had a meltdown about the Respect for Marriage Act. Missouri Republican Congresswoman Vicky Hartzler cried when she talked about how it would affect her to have her prejudices challenged.

Is it wrong for me to enjoy Hartzler's pain? 

I think about Anakin he kills Count Dooku, "it's not the Jedi way." I mean I really believe in being authentic and that pretending to be enlightened isn't the way, but I'm interested in the guilt I have at schadenfreude.  What is that guilt telling me? That getting my way (tolerance and acceptance of the whole spectrum of sexuality) and having someone suffer because they didn't get their way (forcing an inappropriate and ineffective way of being that harms others).

The insight I had today cooking my pasta with mushrooms, nuts and a marinara sauce was that is what I don't like about talk of karma. The schadenfreude of it. Similar to the "fucked around and found out" spirit in the fight for good and less good. 

I have lost 3 friendships in the Trump years, and it's been really hard to have people basically lie to my face about an election, January 6th, and all that. I don't think a political perspective entitles you to be an asshole, like Abbott sending a bus full of immigrants to arrive at Kamala Harris' house on Xmas eve (NY Times). That's a really grimy thing to do and it would only be an ideological perspective that hides the cruelty of it. I don't want to in any way enjoy partisand shots, but I do like what I consider to be the triumph of good over less good. 

I'm working for the alleviation of suffering of all beings through the very difficult discipline of Buddhism. So even when people I don't feel good about, suffer, I'm not as thrilled about that as I could be. (I hear the people in my life laughing at my pathetic attempts, but I still think I want that even if I am so pathetic.)



MSNBC video, that includes nephew Andrew Hartzler putting his aunt in her place. He points out that she's not being silenced, she can't put her "religion" on him. His parents sent him conversion therapy and when in college, he had more conversion therapy. How can you work to change people's desires? 

Master Sheng-yen

There's a great documentary (1:15) about Master Sheng Yen. He was born in China and spread the Dharma to Queens New York. I'm always very impressed by spreaders of the Dharma. He left China and came to America to found a center. Amazing stuff.

I've visited his center in Elmhurst Queens. He came to the USA in 1975 with nothing. It must take great faith to go somewhere and set up a new sangha. There is much merit in such activities. 

Saturday, December 24, 2022

Ajahn Chah



Ajahn Chah once said: "As far as I understand, Christianity teaches people to do good and avoid evil, just as Buddhism does, so what is the problem? However, if people are upset by the idea of celebrating Christmas, that can be easily remedied. We won't call it Christmas. Let's call it 'Buddhamas.' Anything that inspires us to see what is true and do what is good is proper practice. You may call it any name you like."




Thursday, December 22, 2022

Kitchen mindfulness

Winter solstice, I was cutting up onions, and I felt gratitude for Anandi teaching me her kitchen knowledge, which in part is mindfulness in the kitchen where I wasn't always mindful, and supported the cultural shift towards plant based diet.

I worked at Ponderosa Steak House in high school, and quickness was valued above anything. I learned the flip, rotate, flip method of putting hashes on meat. Restaurant work is hard work, I'm always kind to restaurant workers. The upshot for me was sometimes in the kitchen I can be a bit hurried and unmindful. 

Lessons don't sink in right away, but do much later. Tasting as you cook is a learned skill. Poverty has shifted me into the kitchen even more.

I let my food cool down a little bit sometimes, don't want to burn the taste buds. I'm not sure if I've always been open to receiving feedback. Patience with other's autonomy is an important aspect of being in the kitchen with others.

I wish everyone a happy winter solstice. The shortest day of the year in NYC with a day length of 9:15:17. Days start getting longer tomorrow, December 22nd, 2022



Saturday, December 10, 2022

Time

The cosmic view of time is utilized to open up the mind, how our lives are so short, and we can have a little more wisdom in our view of life, indeed, we could actually aim for enlightenment. A huge mountain where a bird flew over with a strip of silk, and that wearing down the mountain is how long a big unit of time takes. A kalpa. Or is it a mahakalpa? Obviously it's not scientific, it's spiritual image. We can't imagine how old the universe is, or time really. Living in the now might be a spiritual strategy to cope with anxiety and depression, but a larger view of time is also useful. The cosmic view can aid spirituality.

"light from the four galaxies took more than 13.4 billion years to reach Webb. More precisely, the telescope sees the galaxies as they looked only 350 million years after the Big Bang, when the universe was only 2% of its current age, although the galaxies must have started to form even earlier." (source) These new telescopes are looking far out into the universe, and into time, it's a similar kind of phenomenon. 

I'm reading a fascinating book of essays by Benjamin Labatut called When We Cease To Understand The World. In the essay I'm reading now he's talking about the Schwarzschild singularity. Time bends around dense objects. Einstein got a letter from the front during WW1 from a academic who was dead by the time he got the letter, with elegant solutions to problems he couldn't even imagine yet. Unique and fascinating book came out in 2020. Short and recommended non-fiction essays. This is a book worth savoring.

I still find it amazing the Buddha who lived 2500 years ago has ideas that I have read about. 



Thursday, December 08, 2022

Listening to talks on Madhyamaka

Madhyamaka is Nagarjuna's articulation of the Dharma.

These are short:

What is the Madhyamaka tradition? By Khenpo Jorden (YouTube) (5:22)

Madhyamaka: Jay Garfield (YouTube) (10:36)

Are all things empty? - Nagarjuna & The Buddhist Middle Way (YouTube) (22:36)

Nāgārjuna and Indian Madhyamaka (YouTube) (38:40) Derived from Jan Christoph Westerhoff, Richard Hayes, and Jay L. Garfield.

Robert Thurman.


The upshot is that there is one thing, and that parts of it don't have separate existence. 

Found a copy of the translation of the Mūlamadhyamakakārikā online:


1:1

Neither from itself nor from another,

Nor from both,

Nor without a cause,

Does anything whatever, anywhere arise. (Wikipedia)


2. There are four conditions: efficient condition;

Percept-object condition; immediate condition;

Dominant condition, just so.

There is no fifth condition.


3. The essence of entities

Is not present in the conditions, etc ….

If there is no essence,

There can be no otherness-essence.

(source)

Tuesday, December 06, 2022

Today is the day Ambedkar died



Bhimrao Ramji Ambedkar lived 3 April 1952 – 6 December 1956. He was born untouchable in India. He would sit outside the classroom and look through the window to learn. He went to America and got a PhD and went to England and got a PhD, then went home to India to help write the constitution and become the country's first law justice minister in 1947. Later he decided he wasn't going to die a Hindu, no point in being untouchable, so he studied religion and decided on Buddhism. At his conversion to Buddhism he converts with many other untouchables. He created a liberation theology type movement where an oppressed class seeks to raise themselves out of poverty and poor social standing. 

I've been friends with a fellow in Pune India, though correspondence, for many years. He was the secretary in the movement. He has a beautiful wife, bought a house for his family. He gave out supplies during Covid. He's a good guy, leads retreats now. 

Naghabodhi's Jai Bhim! is one of many books about the ex-untouchables in India. Gandhi called them Dalit, god's children. Some people think that's not the term they want to use. Prerna Singh Bindra thinks it's a political stunt (source). Is it so hard to imagine ex-untouchable Hindus converting to Buddhism?

The Buddha and His Dhamma was Ambedkar's book on Buddhism, I have a copy of that book.

There's a lot of history in there, and I'm sure it's not as clean and simple as I present it. Ambedkar died 6 weeks after his conversion leaving a movement without a leader. Triratna set up an outpost. Sangharakshita was asked to perform the refuges and precepts. Sangharakshita was Theravadin then, and the custom is to have the most senior monk do it, so he referred Ambedkar to that monk. Later on Lokamitra went to England to help with the movement. He married a Dalit woman and has spent his life in service of the movement. There are other organizations. It's a fractured movement. 

I'm just observing it and reading about it from New York. Every time I meet an Indian person, I ask if they know who Ambedkar is. The people in my neighborhood are from Gujarati, they've never heard of him. They're Hindu. I met a woman from Mumbai once, she was Muslim. She hadn't heard of Ambedkar. The Indians I met working on Long Island didn't know Ambedkar either. One guy I talked to told me Indians don't really know history of their country. He said his friends who watched the Ashoka movie, and they thought he should have kept fighting. One woman told me her father was a religious leader, and he said the castes are archetypes, bringing Jung into the mix. 

As I've gotten older, I've gotten more patient and realistic, but I still hope for a classless, casteless society. of course there will still be hierarchy. I suppose I fantasize about a cashless future, like Star Trek where career fulfillment is the focus. Cultures of oppression will not be cherished, they will be eradicated. 

I find the life of Ambedkar inspiring. 

Savita Ambedkar was Ambedkar's wife from 1948 - 1956