Friday, December 30, 2022

Poem

Want the change by Rainer Maria Rilke

(English version by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy)

Want the change. Be inspired by the flame
where everything shines as it disappears.
The artist, when sketching, loves nothing so much
as the curve of the body as it turns away.

What locks itself in sameness has congealed.
Is it safer to be gray and numb?
What turns hard becomes rigid
and is easily shattered.

Pour yourself out like a fountain.
Flow into the knowledge that what you are seeking
finishes often at the start, and, with ending, begins.

Every happiness is the child of a separation
it did not think it could survive. And Daphne, becoming
a laurel,
dares you to become the wind.



source

Tuesday, December 27, 2022

Schadenfreude

I'm so slow, I make connections at a glacial pace. I was thinking about how I actually enjoy that that woman who had a meltdown about the Respect for Marriage Act. Missouri Republican Congresswoman Vicky Hartzler cried when she talked about how it would affect her to have her prejudices challenged.

Is it wrong for me to enjoy Hartzler's pain? 

I think about Anakin he kills Count Dooku, "it's not the Jedi way." I mean I really believe in being authentic and that pretending to be enlightened isn't the way, but I'm interested in the guilt I have at schadenfreude.  What is that guilt telling me? That getting my way (tolerance and acceptance of the whole spectrum of sexuality) and having someone suffer because they didn't get their way (forcing an inappropriate and ineffective way of being that harms others).

The insight I had today cooking my pasta with mushrooms, nuts and a marinara sauce was that is what I don't like about talk of karma. The schadenfreude of it. Similar to the "fucked around and found out" spirit in the fight for good and less good. 

I have lost 3 friendships in the Trump years, and it's been really hard to have people basically lie to my face about an election, January 6th, and all that. I don't think a political perspective entitles you to be an asshole, like Abbott sending a bus full of immigrants to arrive at Kamala Harris' house on Xmas eve (NY Times). That's a really grimy thing to do and it would only be an ideological perspective that hides the cruelty of it. I don't want to in any way enjoy partisand shots, but I do like what I consider to be the triumph of good over less good. 

I'm working for the alleviation of suffering of all beings through the very difficult discipline of Buddhism. So even when people I don't feel good about, suffer, I'm not as thrilled about that as I could be. (I hear the people in my life laughing at my pathetic attempts, but I still think I want that even if I am so pathetic.)



MSNBC video, that includes nephew Andrew Hartzler putting his aunt in her place. He points out that she's not being silenced, she can't put her "religion" on him. His parents sent him conversion therapy and when in college, he had more conversion therapy. How can you work to change people's desires? 

Master Sheng-yen

There's a great documentary (1:15) about Master Sheng Yen. He was born in China and spread the Dharma to Queens New York. I'm always very impressed by spreaders of the Dharma. He left China and came to America to found a center. Amazing stuff.

I've visited his center in Elmhurst Queens. He came to the USA in 1975 with nothing. It must take great faith to go somewhere and set up a new sangha. There is much merit in such activities. 

Saturday, December 24, 2022

Ajahn Chah



Ajahn Chah once said: "As far as I understand, Christianity teaches people to do good and avoid evil, just as Buddhism does, so what is the problem? However, if people are upset by the idea of celebrating Christmas, that can be easily remedied. We won't call it Christmas. Let's call it 'Buddhamas.' Anything that inspires us to see what is true and do what is good is proper practice. You may call it any name you like."




Thursday, December 22, 2022

Kitchen mindfulness

Winter solstice, I was cutting up onions, and I felt gratitude for Anandi teaching me her kitchen knowledge, which in part is mindfulness in the kitchen where I wasn't always mindful, and supported the cultural shift towards plant based diet.

I worked at Ponderosa Steak House in high school, and quickness was valued above anything. I learned the flip, rotate, flip method of putting hashes on meat. Restaurant work is hard work, I'm always kind to restaurant workers. The upshot for me was sometimes in the kitchen I can be a bit hurried and unmindful. 

Lessons don't sink in right away, but do much later. Tasting as you cook is a learned skill. Poverty has shifted me into the kitchen even more.

I let my food cool down a little bit sometimes, don't want to burn the taste buds. I'm not sure if I've always been open to receiving feedback. Patience with other's autonomy is an important aspect of being in the kitchen with others.

I wish everyone a happy winter solstice. The shortest day of the year in NYC with a day length of 9:15:17. Days start getting longer tomorrow, December 22nd, 2022



Saturday, December 10, 2022

Time

The cosmic view of time is utilized to open up the mind, how our lives are so short, and we can have a little more wisdom in our view of life, indeed, we could actually aim for enlightenment. A huge mountain where a bird flew over with a strip of silk, and that wearing down the mountain is how long a big unit of time takes. A kalpa. Or is it a mahakalpa? Obviously it's not scientific, it's spiritual image. We can't imagine how old the universe is, or time really. Living in the now might be a spiritual strategy to cope with anxiety and depression, but a larger view of time is also useful. The cosmic view can aid spirituality.

"light from the four galaxies took more than 13.4 billion years to reach Webb. More precisely, the telescope sees the galaxies as they looked only 350 million years after the Big Bang, when the universe was only 2% of its current age, although the galaxies must have started to form even earlier." (source) These new telescopes are looking far out into the universe, and into time, it's a similar kind of phenomenon. 

I'm reading a fascinating book of essays by Benjamin Labatut called When We Cease To Understand The World. In the essay I'm reading now he's talking about the Schwarzschild singularity. Time bends around dense objects. Einstein got a letter from the front during WW1 from a academic who was dead by the time he got the letter, with elegant solutions to problems he couldn't even imagine yet. Unique and fascinating book came out in 2020. Short and recommended non-fiction essays. This is a book worth savoring.

I still find it amazing the Buddha who lived 2500 years ago has ideas that I have read about. 



Thursday, December 08, 2022

Listening to talks on Madhyamaka

Madhyamaka is Nagarjuna's articulation of the Dharma.

These are short:

What is the Madhyamaka tradition? By Khenpo Jorden (YouTube) (5:22)

Madhyamaka: Jay Garfield (YouTube) (10:36)

Are all things empty? - Nagarjuna & The Buddhist Middle Way (YouTube) (22:36)

Nāgārjuna and Indian Madhyamaka (YouTube) (38:40) Derived from Jan Christoph Westerhoff, Richard Hayes, and Jay L. Garfield.

Robert Thurman.


The upshot is that there is one thing, and that parts of it don't have separate existence. 

Found a copy of the translation of the Mūlamadhyamakakārikā online:


1:1

Neither from itself nor from another,

Nor from both,

Nor without a cause,

Does anything whatever, anywhere arise. (Wikipedia)


2. There are four conditions: efficient condition;

Percept-object condition; immediate condition;

Dominant condition, just so.

There is no fifth condition.


3. The essence of entities

Is not present in the conditions, etc ….

If there is no essence,

There can be no otherness-essence.

(source)

Tuesday, December 06, 2022

Today is the day Ambedkar died



Bhimrao Ramji Ambedkar lived 3 April 1952 – 6 December 1956. He was born untouchable in India. He would sit outside the classroom and look through the window to learn. He went to America and got a PhD and went to England and got a PhD, then went home to India to help write the constitution and become the country's first law justice minister in 1947. Later he decided he wasn't going to die a Hindu, no point in being untouchable, so he studied religion and decided on Buddhism. At his conversion to Buddhism he converts with many other untouchables. He created a liberation theology type movement where an oppressed class seeks to raise themselves out of poverty and poor social standing. 

I've been friends with a fellow in Pune India, though correspondence, for many years. He was the secretary in the movement. He has a beautiful wife, bought a house for his family. He gave out supplies during Covid. He's a good guy, leads retreats now. 

Naghabodhi's Jai Bhim! is one of many books about the ex-untouchables in India. Gandhi called them Dalit, god's children. Some people think that's not the term they want to use. Prerna Singh Bindra thinks it's a political stunt (source). Is it so hard to imagine ex-untouchable Hindus converting to Buddhism?

The Buddha and His Dhamma was Ambedkar's book on Buddhism, I have a copy of that book.

There's a lot of history in there, and I'm sure it's not as clean and simple as I present it. Ambedkar died 6 weeks after his conversion leaving a movement without a leader. Triratna set up an outpost. Sangharakshita was asked to perform the refuges and precepts. Sangharakshita was Theravadin then, and the custom is to have the most senior monk do it, so he referred Ambedkar to that monk. Later on Lokamitra went to England to help with the movement. He married a Dalit woman and has spent his life in service of the movement. There are other organizations. It's a fractured movement. 

I'm just observing it and reading about it from New York. Every time I meet an Indian person, I ask if they know who Ambedkar is. The people in my neighborhood are from Gujarati, they've never heard of him. They're Hindu. I met a woman from Mumbai once, she was Muslim. She hadn't heard of Ambedkar. The Indians I met working on Long Island didn't know Ambedkar either. One guy I talked to told me Indians don't really know history of their country. He said his friends who watched the Ashoka movie, and they thought he should have kept fighting. One woman told me her father was a religious leader, and he said the castes are archetypes, bringing Jung into the mix. 

As I've gotten older, I've gotten more patient and realistic, but I still hope for a classless, casteless society. of course there will still be hierarchy. I suppose I fantasize about a cashless future, like Star Trek where career fulfillment is the focus. Cultures of oppression will not be cherished, they will be eradicated. 

I find the life of Ambedkar inspiring. 

Savita Ambedkar was Ambedkar's wife from 1948 - 1956


Tuesday, November 29, 2022

Job

Because Christianity permeates the USA, I need to head into it and read. My grandparents were religious, my grandfather was a Baptist minister, and my other grandfather was lay support in the Episcopal church, and I'd spend 2 months with them every summer in the south, growing up. The other 10 months I lived with atheist parents in a Wisconsin suburb. 

I absorbed many Christian attitudes unknowingly. I never formally studied Christianity. I pick up the New Testament every now and then, and I've read some books. 

My son is taking a philosophy of religion class in his first semester of college. His professor Abi Doukhan was taught at the Sorbonne, and seems quite dynamic. I watched a video about Simone Weil. So my son said I could borrow his book on Job, a translation of the book by Stephen Mitchell.

A Buddhist can unpack myths and parables to understand in depth the dominant religion in the society they exists in.

(I'm not seeing the boils)

(I can't read that name Job without thinking of Gob from Arrested Development. It looks like it's pronounced /job/ but it's pronounced /joebe/)

The story of Job is that of a victim. He had everything and god decided to test him. What all knowing, all good god would do such a thing? God wouldn't, but you have to know Christianity was born off a spirituality that thought if you make the right sacrifices to the right gods, then you will be favored. Most people want to worship the most powerful god to be prosperous. Each tribe has different gods. That's how you know it's all malarkey and wishful thinking. And yet somehow psychologically being in touch with your most deepest wishes and hopes can sometimes be of benefit. Religion might be a module that unlocks some of the brain's potential. 

The creation of monotheism is a development in society, but it's not a clean development. We want to worship a god that does it for us. Even with monotheism you have the Jewish version, the Christian version and the Muslim version, and within each of those traditions, there is almost an infinite variety of versions, and within each sect there are different personalities that take everything in different ways. In a way I think trends in spirituality are balderdash. Maybe I'm a nominalist when it comes to spirituality. There is just instances of one thing. Generalizations are just reductions of instances.

What I found when I meditated a lot was that I came to be able to imagine I can partially understand the spiritual instinct common to all religion. When I read Wild, she says you pray to god for the grace to handle what is going on, not to change things. Religion is psychology and culture, not something that changes the world outsides, but your insides. I liked psychoanalysis for a while, and that's about changing what's inside but not so much the world. Meditation doesn't stop bombs in the air, but it does cut into the desire to launch bombs.

So what is this story all about. I'm tempted to related it to the Dark Night of the Soul by John of the Cross. In all the complex theology is the idea other spirituality can use, that sometimes spirituality doesn't pay off. So what's the point then? Again, it's to help you cope, your psychology. But what if you adopt a religion and you don't cope better? What then? Usually the story is you have to be patient for it to take hold of in a real way and also that living closer to reality will be more painful.

Spirituality can help make sense of suffering. In Christianity it's about Eve giving Adam the apple. We became conscious, and consciousness has some drawbacks, and is a complicated legacy. 

In Buddhism it's because we always want. If you've ever gotten what you want, you might notice, if you're not still intoxicated with a rare getting of what you want, that your mind quickly goes onto the next thing. We're never satisfied. Even the sex addict Mick Jagger knew that. Prince knew that in When Doves Cry. His mother was never satisfied. People go onto r/Buddhism on Reddit and ask how to stop wanting, they tried and it's not so easy. 

"You cannot practice non-attachment. You can only show your mind the suffering that attachment creates. When it sees this clearly, it will let go." writes Cory Muscara.

Job is about random bad shit happening to you, that maybe you don't deserve and doesn't make sense. It doesn't make sense for a random person to tell god to punish Job for no reason. But god does. It's random, senseless. Kind of like the ancient Greek gods. Humans just are cannon fodder, they get trampled under the larger feet.

In America we know the gun violence follows the pattern of gun availability and access. When Clinton outlawed automatic weapons violence went down, when the law was allowed to lapse, it went up. America is an outlier in gun murder and violence. We understand the causes and conditions. What is random to me is why we allow this. I know we have the bit that is misinterpreted in the constitution and greedy manufacturers buying politicians. But to me it all seems random and senseless because we could just change the causes and conditions. And we don't. Random senseless humans trampled under the feet of the gods of profit and confusion.


Summary:

His children are partying too much and Job wonders if he should sacrifice an animal to counter displeasing god. Doukhan thinks he represents a kind of pagan view about gods, that the preface is setting him up to be robotic, submissive and simple. 

The accuser points out it's easy to be in favor of god, when god smiles on you with good fortune. God takes everything away and gives Job boils. He's physically disfigured. 

Job has three friends. They rend their clothes and shave their heads to join him. They spent 7 days in silence together. When Job starts speaking again he starts:


God damn the day I was born
and the night that forced me from the womb.
On that day let there be darkness;
let it never have been created;
let it sink back into the void.
Let chaos overpower it;
let black clouds overwhelm it;
let the sun be plucked from its sky.
Let oblivion overshadow it;
let the other days disown it;
let the aeons swallow it up.
On that night--let no child be born,
no mother cry out with joy.
Let sorcerers wake the Serpent
to blast it with eternal blight.
Let its last stars be extinguished;
let it wait in terror for daylight;
let its dawn never arrive.
For it did not shut the womb's doors
to shelter me from this sorrow.

Why couldn't I have died
as they pulled me out of the dark?
Why were there knees to hold me,
breasts to keep me alive?
If only I had strangled or drowned
on my way to the bitter light.
Now I would be at rest,
I would be sound asleep,
with kings and lords of the earth
who lived in echoing halls,
with princes who hoarded silver
and filled their cellars with gold.
There the troubled are calm;
there the exhausted rest.
Rich and poor are alike there,
and the slave lies next to his master.


Why is there light for the wretched,
life for the bitter-hearted,
who long for death, who seek it
as if it were buried treasure,
who smile when they reach the graveyard
and laugh as their pit is dug.
For God has hidden my way
and put hedges across my path.
I sit and gnaw on my grief;
my groans pour out like water.
My worst fears have happened;
my nightmares have come to life.
Silence and peace have abandoned me,
and anguish camps in my heart.


It’s really quite an expression about existence and disappointment written in 6th century BCE. (The Buddha live 563 to 483 BCE, which is around the same time.) The language of Job stands out for its conservative spelling and for its exceptionally large number of words and forms not found elsewhere in the Bible. I've stumbled on perhaps a best part.

He would prefer not to be born based on what's happened to him. He suggests that everyone suffers this way, rich, poor and slave. "I sit and gnaw on my grief." There are many amazing lines of existential intensity. As Doukhan points out, he's emotional, messy, confused, rebellious. 

Doukhan suggests that the prologue is ironic, the author is setting up a caricature of someone who is superficial, and that god actually prefers the rebellious honest follower, who actually struggles and isn't just performing piety to please her. I ask myself how does she know that. I don't think that's an answerable question, but I do think that view really enlivens the text. Then I begin to wonder if the emphasis on authenticity isn't a secular Christian/Jewish agenda. Anyway, it makes the text come alive to me.


Eliphaz says to keep playing the game. He repeats the idea that you will get good things by being devout and submissive to god. Feels like the party line, status quo, what Job used to think.

Job's response is that life has become like eating gruel without salt. He has no hunger for life any more with the god that doesn't grant him favors, not even his wish to not exist. Life is a prison, he suffers, and he knows he will be dead soon enough. He will cry out in despair. Why would you pay attention to my faults and punish me? The punishing god doesn't make sense to him.


Bildad says come on, toe the line and you will be fine. Job starts off about how awesome and massive god is supposed to be, and then shifts into why? 

It got me thinking about a major problem I have with the idea of god. On the one hand "he" is so powerful and awesome, and yet on the other hand if he actually does things, then why not actually prevent evil. I think an all knowing, all powerful god who doesn't intervene is the only idea that makes sense, he just pressed the start button, and is not there afterwards. I don't see how you get around all the problems if she is doing things. It's not for us to know and all that, yea, but come on, some things are obviously horrible, and they keep being horrible: Racism, sexism, classism, and all the othering that people do. People can be very horrible to each other. 

Job's articulation of the problem of evil is unique in it's poetry, but underneath is the problem of evil. I'm going to have to look into Doukhan's lecture on that. He comes back to it as he settles down articulating what he is trying to get at. Why do evil people seem to get away with things? Why pray to a god that can't punish sin? And punishes people who play by the rules? Job insists that attempts at solving this problem are hollow lies.

Not a problem for Buddhists who don't see a creator god necessary. Conditionality explains how the world works. And the secular Buddhists just drop off the metaphysical stuff that accumulated, like mould on the spiritual texts.

Zophar takes a run at him. You think you're innocent and can't be punished? You have hidden motives and you're guilty. You dare to question god? "a stupid man will be wise when a crow gives birth to a zebra." Confess your sins and you will be pure. It's like he's saying the punishment proves you have sins to confess. The original blame the victim.

Job seems to say for all his great creation, god takes it all away. Answer what sins or crimes did I commit to deserve this punishment? Why not leave off the punishment? The body gets old and falls apart. Life is short and painful. You only have your experience, you can't know what happens to your progeny. Human are limited when it comes taking longer views sometimes.

There's a second and third round of this. I like Elephaz's second rebuke. But Job says he doesn't want consolation. 

This is the old contradiction or dialectic in the spiritual life: is it consolation or confrontation? I think it's both and we can get into different moods. Is one the antidote to the other, is it a dialectic?

"...my pain keeps raging
...disaster has worn me out,
and suffering has made me wither."

He's lost his equanimity.

When I compare myself to Job, I think I created the problems and hole I'm stuck in. I haven't lost everyone I love. My daughter still loves me. My sons are busy and teenagers, but they still love me. My parents love me. I still have a few old friends and many friendly acquaintances.

His 3 friends who sit with him for 7 days while he's silent, are still his friends, even if in the end god tells him to forget those friends. Job is describing his subjective reality, that is what Job is all about. Ogden talks about the Schizoid position, where we lose touch with reality.

Finally a wind makes it's appearance and says his friends aren't great, and that he's so awesome he really should tremble thinking about all he created. It reminds me of the time a monk came to the Buddha and a monk was thinking about disrobing. The Buddha whisked him off to the 33 gods realm and he was so awestruck that he didn't disrobe. For me, this is a mythological answer that isn't hugely satisfying. What I get out of it, is when you're stuck, you're kind of forgetting the awesomeness of it all and you need some kind of reminder. But that just kicks the can down the road, the problem is you're not being inspired. What do you do with that? The book seems to argue holding that paradox is spirituality.

Job gets back all his stuff and god says, "I was just kidding." Job gets more sons whom he names Dove, Cinnamon and Eye-shadow. Kind of weird names.

I feel so lucky my son took this class and lent me his book. That I watched Doukhan's lectures, that she shares her lectures. This is great literature, and great spiritual exploration.

Please comment and share your understanding of Job, or this post.


Links: 

Abi Doukhan lecture 2021: (She's wearing a mask, it's during Covid) Skip ahead to get past housekeeping and groups. She feels the dialogue is poetry and the essence of Job. Epilogue and prologue isn't important. When we find out he's virtuous, we get not a list of virtue, but of possessions. This is the prosperity gospel. Words: Tam=innocent, naive, yesha=righteous, follows rules, walks the line, straight. Job is faithful in an immature way. Mimonedies says he was good but he wasn't a wise man, in a sheltered kind of way, sheltered, entered life. You have to go through the darkness to be wise. Job shifts: robotic to emotional, submissive to rebellious, clear to confused. In the end, God comes and tells Job to save his friends. How does God prefer psychotic Job to articulate friends. God likes Job's authenticity. Even when it's dark, negative, angry, confused and blasphemous. God of the Hebrew Bible enjoys a good challenge. Hebrew text is always inviting growth, no comfort. Job is human. Don't be a perfect robot, be messy, confused, authentic. She makes me really like this book. Do you like the ending she asks?

Lecture 2022: Preface is a caricature of believers. The idea that god controls destiny, but he's moving away from that. God loves authenticity, prefers your honest rebellion.

Lecture 2022 part 2: 2 people in the class liked god's response to Job. 

Last edited 12/8/22


Monday, November 28, 2022

Musk disrespect?

 


I’ll tell you one thing, he doesn’t keep the precepts. But a voice in my head tells me to focus on myself and not worry about others.

The vajra is something that Buddhism and Hinduism use, so it's not exclusively a Buddhist symbols.

“I once talked to a fellow Singaporean in a Thai Buddhist temple who was trying to be a monk. Apparently he had been involved in gangs and petty crime and didn't feel good about his life. He told me he wasn't very smart, so his mentor gave him a point system towards achieving nirvana - something like 1 point a day, -10 points for consuming meat, -5 for killing a living thing, etc. I thought this was a pretty silly way to try to achieve something as complex and abstract as spiritual enlightenment, but I guess for some people life really needs to be spelled out in concrete terms.“ Reddit

Reddit discussion of this photo. He might have learned about the vajra from a video game (Call of Duty Zombies). Of course Buddhists and Hindus are can be upset that Hitler co-oped the swastika (a reversed version).

last updated 11/29/22

Wednesday, November 23, 2022

Cory Muscara

From Twitter by Cory Muscara:

I meditated 15 hours a day for 6 months straight with one of the toughest Buddhist monks on the planet.

Here's what I learned: 

1. Finding your true self is an act of love. Expressing it is an act of rebellion.

2. A sign of growth is having more tolerance for discomfort. But it’s also having less tolerance for bullshit.

3. Who you are is not your fault, but it is your responsibility.

4. Procrastination is the refusal or inability to be with difficult emotions.

5. Desires that arise in agitation are more aligned with your ego. Desires that arise in stillness are more aligned with your soul.

6. The moment before letting go is often when we grip the hardest.

7. You don’t find your ground by looking for stability. You find your ground by relaxing into instability.

8. What you hate most in others is usually what you hate most in yourself.

9. The biggest life hack is to become your own best friend. Everything is easier when you do.

10. The more comfortable you become in your own skin, the less you need to manufacture the world around you for comfort.

11. An interesting thing happens when you start to like yourself. You no longer need all the things you thought you needed to be happy.

12. If you don’t train your mind to appreciate what is good,  you’ll continue to look for something better in the future, even when things are great.

13. The belief that there is some future moment more worth our presence than the one we’re in right now is why we miss our lives.

14. There is no set of conditions that leads to lasting happiness. Lasting happiness doesn’t come from conditions; it comes from learning to flow with conditions.

15. Spend more time cultivating a mind that is not attached to material things than time spent accumulating them.

16. Sometimes we need to get out of alignment with the rest of the world to get back into alignment with ourselves.

17. Real confidence looks like humility. You no longer need to advertise your value because it comes from a place that does not require the validation of others.

18. High pain tolerance is a double-edged sword. It’s key for self-control, but can cause us to override the pain of being out of alignment.

19. Negative thoughts will not manifest a negative life. But unconscious negative thoughts will.

20. To feel more joy, open to your pain.

21. Bullying yourself into enlightenment does not work. Befriending yourself is how you transcend yourself.

22. Peak experiences are fun, but you always have to come back. Learning to appreciate ordinary moments is the key to a fulfilling life.

23. Meditation is not about feeling good. It’s about feeling what you’re feeling with good awareness. Plot twist: Eventually that makes you feel good.

24. If you are able to watch your mind think, it means who you are is bigger than your thoughts.

25. Practicing stillness is not about privileging stillness over movement. It’s about the CAPACITY to be still amidst your impulses. It’s about choice.

26. The issue is not that we get distracted. It's that we're so distracted by distractions we don't even know we're distracted.

27. There are 3 layers to a moment: Your experience, your awareness of the experience, and your story about the experience. Be mindful of the story.

28. Life is always happening in just one moment. That's all you're responsible for.

29. Your mind doesn’t wander. It moves toward what it finds most interesting. If you want to focus better, become more curious about what's in front of you.

30. Life continues whether you’re paying attention to it or not. I think that is why the passage of time is scary.

31. You cannot practice non-attachment. You can only show your mind the suffering that attachment creates. When it sees this clearly, it will let go.

32. Meditation can quickly become spiritualized suppression. Be careful not to use concentration to avoid what is uncomfortable.

33. One of the deepest forms of peace we can experience is living in integrity. You can lie to other people about who you are, but you can’t lie to your heart.

34. Be careful not to let the noise of your mind overpower the whispers of your heart.

35. Monks love to fart while they meditate. The wisdom of letting go expresses itself in many forms.

36. You can't life-hack wisdom. Do the work.


Tuesday, November 22, 2022

Purity by means of rebirth

“There are some contemplatives & brahmans with this doctrine, this view:

‘Purity is by means of rebirth.’ But it’s not easy to find a rebirth that I haven’t been reborn in before, in this long, long journey, aside from the Pure-Abode devas. If I had been reborn among the Pure-Abode devas, I wouldn’t have come back to this world again.” -MN12

Seems like the Buddha is suggesting here that the pure land approach of aiming for a rebirth isn’t recommended. For me pure land texts are beautiful devotional texts. Aiming for a rebirth doesn’t make sense to me. 



Sunday, November 20, 2022

Images plus

 




A Buddhist can ask: what are the conditions that allow for this: At least 5 people killed, 18 injured in a shooting at a gay nightclub in Colorado Springs (CNN)





Saturday, November 12, 2022

Not recommended

The Buddha’s report of his asceticism:

“I was an ascetic, the most extreme ascetic. I was rough, the most extreme in roughness. I was scrupulous, the most extreme in scrupulousness. I was secluded, the most extreme in seclusion. “This is how it was for me, in terms of asceticism: I was cloth-less, rejecting conventions, licking my hands, not coming when called, not staying when asked. I didn’t consent to food brought to me, to food dedicated to me, or to an invitation to a meal. I accepted nothing from the mouth of a pot or from the mouth of a bowl. I accepted nothing from across a threshold, across a stick, across a pestle, from two eating together, from a pregnant woman, from a nursing woman, from a woman living with a man, from where it was announced that food was to be distributed, from where a dog was waiting or flies were buzzing. I took no fish or meat. I drank no liquor, wine, or fermented drink. “I limited myself to one house & one morsel a day, or two houses & two morsels… seven houses & seven morsels. I lived on one saucerful a day, two… seven saucerfuls a day. I took food once a day, once every two days… once every seven days, and so on up to a fortnight, devoted to regulating my intake of food. “I was an eater of greens, millet, wild rice, hide-parings, moss, rice bran, rice-scum, sesame flour, grass, or cow dung. I lived on forest roots & berries. I fed on fallen fruits. “I wore hemp, canvas, shrouds, refuse rags, tree bark, antelope hide, strips of antelope hide, kusa-grass garments, bark garments, wood-shaving garments, head-hair garments, animal wool, owl’s wings. I was a hair-&-beard puller, one devoted to the practice of pulling out my hair & beard. I was a stander, one who rejected seats. I was a kneeler, one devoted to the exertion of kneeling. I was a spike-mattresser, one who made my bed on a bed of spikes. I was a third-time-in-the-evening bather, one who stayed devoted to the practice of bathing in water. “Thus in a variety of ways I stayed devoted to the practice of tormenting & afflicting the body. That’s how it was for me, in terms of asceticism.”

-MN12, directly quoted from Noble Warrior.

He is dirty, he hides from people, then this:

“I would crawl on all fours to the cow-sheds when the cows had gone out and the cowherds had gone off. Whatever manure there was from young nursing calves: I took just that for food. As long as my own urine and excrement hadn’t run out, I took just my own urine and excrement for food. That’s how it was for me, in terms of subsisting on the great foul things as food. (Op cit)

He suffered the extremes in weather, he slept in charnel grounds, people urinated on him, and he still had equanimity. I think most people are seeking to be that kind of equanimity, or at least fantasize about it when they are in pain.




Shrine at a Sangharakshita remembrance ceremony, he died October 30, 2018.



Candles, flowers, Sangharakshita and Ambedkar photos. Manjushri. Then a fairly plain larger Buddha surrounded by many little Buddhas embedded in the walls. 

Friday, November 04, 2022

PBS Journeys Into Buddhism

Vajra Sky Over Tibet (2013)(125 minutes). Why did great Buddhist civilizations vanish? John Bush is the filmmaker. They went to Tibet, with it's complicated politics. They did not ask for permission and they did not interview anyone because they could get in trouble for speaking about the Chinese invasion. They go to Ganden Monastery, 2 hours from Lhasa. Center for Gelugpa tradition. The Buddhists there fled but returned. It used to have 700 people, now it has 400. It is under close scrutiny by the Chinese officials. It's popular to circumambulate the Barkhor in Lhasa around the Jokhang temple. Spinning the prayer wheel is "equivalent" to saying all the prayers on the wheel turned. They show a market where along with Manjushri, they sell statues of Mao. "We want our teachers back," the Tibetan people repeatedly say to the film makers. The filmmaker reports half of Lhasa is now Han Chinese. People prostrate to get to the Jowo Shakyamuni statue. Inside people walk around the temple. They discuss the teachings and show various images. They show monks debating. They visit Ani Tsankhung Nunnery (blog post about a visit). They write out mantras that go into prayer wheels. Supposedly women can realize enlightenment more quickly than men according to Tibetan scriptures. For a time after the Chinese invasion they desecrated the temples, they used them as a slaughterhouse, and a pig stye. Discussion of wrathful deities. Long lines in front of Jowo Buddha. They show the Potala Palace, and a Tibetan Opera festival. They talk about the cultural revolution. They go to Norbulingka, the summer residence of the Dalai Lama. How he fled. They take a 6 hour journey to Gyantse. Bush talks about Buddha nature, dualism. He quotes Dagpo Tashi Namgyal. They visit the Kumbum. Below is a photo from the monastery 


Dadon Dawa Dolma is a narrator at times (YouTube song Goddess Festival held in Woodstock, NY, in 1999). They talk about sadhana meditation and Green Tara. The show mountains, farmers. They go to Shalou Monastery. During the Cultural Revolution they used it as a grain house. Shigatse is the second largest city in Tibet. It's weird there's a Tibetan quarter in the city. Tashi Lhunpo Monastery is there, the home of the Panchen Lama, second to the Dalai Lama. Where the Dalai Lama is a manifestation of Avalokiteshvara, Panchen Lama is a manifestation of Amitabha. The previous lama was probably poisoned by the Chinese. The Dalai Lama found the new one Gedhun Choekyi Nyima, and he has never been seen again. If he is still alive he is the youngest political prisoner. The Chinese chose Gyaincain Norbu to be the 11th Panchen Lama. They listen to memories of elderly monks who remember the 10th Panchen Lama. They show them, but they don't speak on camera and they just report that he was a playful boy who was their spiritual master. The young monks have far out hats, skewing to one side. The drink yak butter tea. China controls who are in leadership roles of the monastery. The Panchen Lama finds the Dalai Lama in a child. China gets to now pick the next Dalai Lama. And thus ensures the death of the culture in Tibet, but it has spread out all over the world, and who knows how it survives now. They go to Drepung Monastery for the unveiling of gigantic tanka. They throw white prayer scars (katha) and paper mantras onto the tanka.


Bush asks why there are so many sites, where Buddhism has vanished. Great monuments with few living caretakers. Part of it is the chaos of the world, conquering and diaspora. Which makes me want to go to Iceland which has the highest peace index. It makes me think about Porter's book touring the comeback of Buddhism in China.

The invasion of Tibet by China is an ongoing atrocity that roles out. I know civilizations are wiped out frequently. Here in America I am on Marossepinck land, a branch of Lenape. Now it's got many Orthodox Jews (from all over), Bukharians from Tajikistan, Poles, Albanians, Ukrainians, Chinese, Columbians, Venezuelans, Brazilians, Ecuadorians, Korean, Irish, Afghanistan, India, and Portuguese immigrants. Even if change is inevitable, the choices of Chinese government are pretty horrible. They even oppress their own people. Autocracy is on the rise in America, and elections are going to be held on Tuesday. I hope you vote.


There are 2 more Bush PBS documentaries.

Dharma Earth: This one starts in Thailand and Wat Phra Kaew and uses the Chao Phraya River as an organizing principle for exploration. They go to Laos, Burma.

Prajna Earth explores the lost civilization of Angkor in Cambodia, the magnificent Angkor Wat temple and Bali’s sacred landscapes.


 

Friday, October 28, 2022

Means and ends

 Source


Ksitigarbha hears the cries of the world and voluntarily enters the hell realms to provide support. The current society in the USA is a hell realm, or hungry ghosts, in some respects.


The unskillful means of the early communist party trying to get it's way has created a world where people imagine communism is synonymous with authoritarianism. There are consequences to using unskillful means. The supreme court is finding out about that.

Democratic socialism is about moving in that direction with consent. Persuading, and accepting when the majority doesn't want to move in that direction. If the majority of the people don't want roads, or trash removal, or accessible health care, then we can't get it. That's the give and take of democracy. Many people reject activist government trying to solve problems. Ramming them down someone else's throat isn't the way. The means are the ends in democracy. It's through persuasion and discussion. It's a battle of knowledge. Humans are limited, they don't always act in their own best interests. Democratic socialists don't know better, though, because that leads to authoritarianism. 

Current Republicans think they know what is right for America, they feel they got close to it. It just so happens to align with the evangelical christians, white supremacists and other anti-woke ideas that reject inconvenient ideas like global warming and all we know now about how the world works. Greed is good. Power is good. There is no equality of justice before the law, it's a sliding scale. Some just want less taxes and don't like progressive thinking that leads to more taxation. America was founded on rejecting taxes without representation. They just take off that last part about representation because we're not ruled by England any more. Not since July 4, 1776.

For a democracy to work everyone has to do their part, including the leaders. When leaders break norms and just have a by any means mentality, it goes to pot. Everyone thinks they know better. I kind of miss the WW2 era where grandiose Hitler types were not revered, the way Kanye West can admire him, Trump can admire him.

We’re trying to have a French Revolution moment but it’s the right that has gotten violent. Violence to enforce the disparity of wealth. By those who imagine themselves as having ultra rich concerns.

I often think about the violence of John Brown who worked to abolish slavery in the USA.

Some want a monarchy in the USA. What the fuck is going on? Italians celebrate Mussolini. Guy goes into a bar in Soho in a Nazi uniform. Elon Musk is tweeting conspiracy bullshit on his platform, to signal that it's OK to spread misinformation.

As a topic of the rise of fascism in our current times, I read about the oldest church in Dortmund, "In December 2016, nine neo-Nazis from various German cities who were associated with the Die Rechte right wing group occupied the church steeple and appeared to set off fireworks from it. The members were subsequently taken into custody by police. Neo-Nazi slogans shouted from the steeple through a megaphone were drowned out by the church bells, ordered to be rung by the vicar of St. Reinold's. The illegal occupation of the church's tower was met with disbelief and anger from the church's spokespersons and the vast majority of the public." I was reading about Dortmund a soccer team I like, and coming across this little nugget in reading about the city. It's kind of shocking to keep coming across these little tidbits of the rise of fascism in our times. 

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Tuesday, October 25, 2022

Obstacles

What are the obstacles? I'm reading the 21 praises of Green Tara and thinking about obstacles.


One hundred full autumn moons gathered together,

Blazing with the expanding light

Of a thousand stars assembled.


Everyone is different, but are they outside you, or inside you?

I would argue they're inside you. Removing your obstacles on the path is perfect. What is blocking you? 


Each Tathagata has a different take on obstacles.

Padmasambhava asks what are your demons, and can you look at them?

Amitabha asks what are your obstacles to love?

Avalokiteshvara asks what are your blocks to compassion?

Manjushri asks what are your obstacles to wisdom?

Amoghasiddhi asks what are your obstacles to courage? Avoiding envy?

Vairocana asks what prevents you from living in the Dharmakaya?

Ratnasambhava asks what prevents you from having equanimity, non-dualistic wisdom?

Akshobhya asks what prevents you from having fortitude and mirror like wisdom? Humility? This is the antidote for narcissism and grandiosity. Green Tara is supposed to be the consort to this Tathagata. 


Reading up on the Tathagatas, I want to read the Śūraṅgama Sūtra. The sutra comes from India, filters through China and then goes back to Tibet, losing and gaining with each transition in geography and language. Another name for it is "The Sutra of the Foremost Shurangama at the Great Buddha’s Summit Concerning the Tathagata's Secret Cause of Cultivation His Certification to the Complete Meaning and Bodhisattvas' Myriad Practices"

"Some of the main themes of the Śūraṅgama Sūtra are the worthlessness of the Dharma when unaccompanied by samādhi power, and the importance of moral precepts as a foundation for the Buddhist practice."

This also leads to the Tathāgatagarbha Sūtra.

Dharmas are endless, I shall master them.

The outflow precepts:

One Must Cut Off Killing

One Must Cut Off Stealing

One Must Cut Off Lust

One Must Cut Off False Speech

One Must Cut Off Drinking



Charles Luk translation of Surangama Sutra. From Goodreads, "Mr Luk translates Sunyata to voidness instead of the more current emptiness. I think voidness points more to the absence of something than the actual meaning of no separate existence."

Read Sangharakshita: “Sürängama Sutra known in Chinese as "The Buddha's Great Crown Sütra', which though traditionally regarded as having been translated from a Sanskrit original by Paramärtha in the eighth century, is now generally acknowledged to be a native Chinese production. An attractive literary composition, it teaches a form of 'Absolute Idealism', and lists twenty-five methods of controlling the mind by meditation on the six sense-objects, the six sense-organs, six consciousnesses and seven elements. Each of these methods is expounded, on the basis of his own experience, by an Arhant or great Bodhisattva.” (Eternal Legacy)

And reading leads to meditation. 

Thursday, October 20, 2022

4 foundations of mindfulness




Wes Nisker has a Wikipedia entry. He worked on radio and started publishing Buddhist books in 1998. He founded a Buddhist journal called Inquiring Mind. He's written a lot of articles (151) in his journal.

Mindfulness can be about anything. 

What does Buddhism suggest is the best focus of mindfulness? You could have mindfulness of soccer or what excites you, or what bores you. Darth Vader is mindful of the fears of loss, and his greed and desire for control. I tend to think some people as on the Sith path, their mindfulness is skewed. Trump is mindful of what he can try to get away with, a weirdo who doesn't know how to get things the right way and thinks we should all love him for his transgressions. I feel like he's a captive of his imagined influence at this point, he's even more alienated from his true self by his success. He could use some wisdom, that's for sure.

The Four Foundations of Mindfulness are based on the Satipatthana Sutta. They break the 4 things down further, but you are supposed to be mindful of your body, feelings, mind and Dharma. 

So I begin this book. Nisker went to India in 1970 and did his first meditation retreat at the age of 28. He'd done some graduate work, been to therapy, and found himself on retreat near the Bodhi tree. He likes the Theravada tradition, though he quotes the Lotus Sutra to start the book, and he's not a monk. He likes sciences and the idea of nature. He's an American from California, and is into the lay sect of Theravadan Buddhism called IMS, Vipassana or insight meditation. 

I feel a bit cantankerous doubting his quote of the Buddha: "True happiness consists in eliminating the false idea of "I"."  He cites the Kindred Sayings, and he could list where in there he got it, but he doesn't. I search "true happiness" in the Samyutta Nikaya and don't find anything. At Sutta Central I search "true happiness" and I don't come up with his quote.   

I can't help but think of Larry "Doc" Sportello from Inherent Vice. Wes "Scoop" Nisker is like tuned into the cosmic mysteries like Doc, and Scoop is high on meditation, not grass. 

I believe all the things he believes, I do believe in this interconnection, nature and oneness. I'm not as bewitched by science, but I do think it has some interesting bolstering aspects. Noticing how people lack a real persuasive argument, he riffs off books he's read. He states his opinions, very little argument. Nisker was a radio personality in California, and he's got some good quips in his wikipedia page. I'm not sure when I became allergic to California hippy spirituality talk. I'm embarrassed by that, I'm going to force myself to read on. 

Why do I think the insistence on nature should reference Concord Transcendentalist, or more likely influence, the Taoist? Chinese wisdom is melded more with Taoism, it's not uncommon for the hermit poets of Tang dynasty China to reference Taoism some, and Buddhism some. I'm not some purist who doesn't allow for syncretism. I like Taoism since I took a class in 1986 at the University of Wisconsin. 

Maybe Scoop knows about the origins of ideas of nature but he just wants to write about it without labeling everything where it comes from. Perhaps that's my obsession. I feel like it's an unknowing smoosh of ideas. Scoop is one of those guys that quotes everything including the Bible in a book that seemed to purport to be the 4 foundations on Mindfulness. 

I am fascinated by the myths of Adam and Eve. We were whole but our consciousness or whatever caused us to not be happy. He remakes the garden of Eden into a garden of oneness, dualism is what has caused our fall.

He gives a history of the self. He quotes Julian JaynesPhilip Cushman and David Darling whom I'm not familiar with. He's really riffing off a lot of stuff, it's a sort of flight of ideas. He's building the west coast case to be less egotistical. He quotes Alan Watts, the philosophical entertainer. He brings up the phrase "resonating neuronal assemblies" as an example of something. He quotes Colin Tudge.

"The sacred is alive not just in us, but everywhere." So this is my problem with sacred, because if it's everything, everywhere, then it's a meaningless word. But that's perhaps superficial, the insight is that we can appreciate everything, or we can profane everything. To get profits at the cost of humanity is profane. To spread misinformation is profane. To see we are all connected and therefore we must think of others and be kind is making everything sacred. Maybe sacred and profane are verbs. Sacred is a mental state of appreciation, gratitude and humility. The act of realizing our connections makes things sacred. 

He quotes Ken Wilber. The quote about how an environmental ethics springs from the sacred. End of Chapter 1. My recommendation is to skip this chapter.

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Sunday, October 16, 2022

Why Is Buddhism True by Robert Wright

Part one: Culture riff

I'm listening to Why Buddhism Is True. He uses an objective scientific language to justy a secular Buddhism. He feels it is OK to take what works for Americans, not unlike colonialists who took resources from the third world, except this is the spiritual life and nobody is having anything taken from them. I don't mean to be so dismissive, I want to hear thoughts and experience from everywhere. But I am dismissing my qualms about reading this book.

In some ways I'm scared, because he's obviously just sharing his journey, without close contact with a teacher, or even community. He doesn't speak about a community of writer friends or editors or even people he hangs out with or meditates with. He goes to a meditation retreat, and basically is there by himself. How much can we figure out by ourselves without being modified by others?

Full disclosure. I really like Stephen Batchelor. I'm not afraid of being called a secular Buddhist. I think rebirth is true because people are born every day and it's not necessarily a personality, it's just birth, not really rebirth, but if you combine personality, circumstances, you could get a reincarnation of someone. I don't know and I'm open to the idea that it's like a candle flame passing from one wick to another. That's doesn't seem right because babies don't really seem to have anything, but OK. I'm willing to believe the Tulkus of Tibetan tradition all have the similar experience of having a fairly prescribed life, a concentration of teaching resources are put upon them, and their lifestyle leads to a certain kind of being. Whether it's literally true or not, the Tulku experience is going to be almost like a reincarnation or someone because they create the similar upbringings. Tibetans would not like their literal system to be contextualized like that, maybe. But if you're intellectually honest, you might not necessarily feel the same way about the sort of postulated assumptions and things you can verify. The belief in reincarnation is a cultural assumption, where as Godel's theorem is a mathematical proof. I can see the attractiveness and respect other's cultural assumptions without feeling obligated to think exactly the same way.

I read a lot of hate about secular Buddhism, how wrong headed it is, but the tradition that criticizes doesn't have explicit communication as a hallmark, so they won't really defend it in public. What you're missing out with secular Buddhism is unspeakable, behind closed doors. Maybe they are the same thing, just different personalities, who knows. I sometimes think the debate is silly, it's not a debate about real things, more a dislike of personalities, history and culture.

Infact the open source Buddhism versus the whispered tradition might be the difference between shamanism and mysticism and objective explicit knowledge. I could see teachers feeling a quiver in their being when asked to justify certain things in public. They can't, they're assumptions. Assumptions are important and useful and there's nothing wrong with making assumptions. For someone to ask, "why should I adopt these set of assumptions?" is something the secular Buddhists are saying. People can feel anger at that question if that is what arises, right? As long and you're polite, what you do when you feel anger is everything. Can you channel it for the good? Can you use your wrathful energy properly? 

The opposite side is kind of like sports people who say you can't talk about losing, that will jinx it. Imagining the possibility of losing and failure in sports will perhaps mess with an athlete, but fans don't have to concentrate with a winning attitude for the team to win. Infact inebriation and socializing seems more important to the fan. To imagine you need to focus to be a fan is to open up the door to being a fan, because you imagine yourself, you project yourself onto a team. You're there with them, even though it's a passive observation. You can't jinx the players on the field, you can only really just add your voice cheering, for whatever that is worth.

In a similar way the guru model of Vajrayana Buddhism is to not explicitly speak aloud. You speak differently to every person you talk to. It doesn't make good reading because there are often keys to unlocking Tantric texts that are only given out when a student is ready. Texts are supported in community. There is a kind of guarding of the tradition. It makes it precious and sacred.

The idea is to parse out teachings when the student is ready. The idea that westerners have spiritual indigestion because they are taking in too many rich foods, makes sense. A gradual and regulated approach. Maybe it's a fantasy of being exactly fed the right things in the spiritual life, but it could also be exactly the kindness articulated with the ideas of generosity in Buddhism. This line of thinking would also be against teaching perfection of wisdom at the start because it is a higher teaching and can also lead to ethical nihilism instead of spiritual transcendence in the wrong hands, in unready hands.

Shamanism is the cool guy who doesn't want to talk about how to be cool. It is the movie Hitch (2005), they want to guard their knowledge because that is what gives them power, but they also want to live off their insights. 

As the information age opens up knowledge to all people, there are some people that get really twisted up because they are isolated and don't have life experience to take things the right way, weigh them against other things and generally take things in proportion. Nothing is tailored to where they are at. That is why you get people going onto Reddit and saying they're having a really hard time "giving up attachments". The whole area and way of speaking about attachments is wrongheaded. The fruit of the practice is to let go of unhealthy commitments through insight. In Triratna that kind of way of talking is banished because it's unhelpful, the cart before the horse, grabbing the firebrand by the wrong end. This is one of the things that might lead to a guru approach. Many lone dog Buddhists will eventually quit because they can't get untwisted. They can't get the support they need to point them in the right direction, or even worse, they don't receive the help offered because they are not receptive.

The fantasy is that you can be oriented by someone else, and then you won't have to make too many course corrections. But what practicing in isolation has taught me, after a foundation in sangha with others, is that making your own course corrections is a vital part of the spiritual life. You're the best person to do that, most of the time. 

No extreme is ever the way, neither lone dogging it, nor subservient following. We need a mixture of self reliance and support. 

The Buddha went to two teachers to learn all they could teach. At a crucial point he went off on his own. And then after hanging with the the 5 ascetics, he even left them! They were mad when he left, they felt betrayed, they might have acted like a cult and not let him return. Somehow they felt he'd done something, so they gave him a chance, and he taught Kondanna the path. Thus the teachings were born, the teachings could be shared, they were not too personal, it wasn't an idiosyncratic result. You can be taught how to become enlightened. 

There's a lot missing in the Pali Canon because it's not a transcript. It's what the monks chanted for hundreds of years before the words were written down, and it's come to us 2500 years later, in translation. 

In 2022, they just corrected the idea that Chaucer was a rapist, by unsealing records in a salt mine in Cheshire from the 14th century. In 2012 they found Richard the 3rd body! He died in 1485! Today they're finding all kinds of amazing transcripts in Gundhara. Buddhist archaeology is finding amazing things every day it seems, recently they found a unexpected statue. Receding waters exposed underwater statues.

The Buddha died roughly around 483 BCE. Going that far back into the mist of time, so much is lost. What we have is amazing but hard to read because it's made for chanting and not a transcription. Now we have generalizations about decades, and decade playlists and discussions about trends in generations. It's hard to imagine back into time like this. Lineage is the faith dream of connection back to the Buddha.

The fantasy of lineage helps the Buddhist. My lineage goes back to the Buddha so it's the one true path. I get a lot of anger when I shatter that illusion. Like rebirth, it's an assumption of a group, one you need to be inside that group, but is obviously just an assumption when you're outside the group. Talking about it as an assumption is hidden knowledge, to be in the group you have to forbid exploring that question, because exposing it as an assumption devalues it. Some things must be unspoken.

This is why, in a way, we'll never transcend the cultic aspect of American politics. There are crucial ways in which people don't want to know things. My conservative Baptist relatives aren't interesting in challenging or even looking at the assumptions of their tribe. They are as true as living and breathing in the tribe. The tribe chooses a leader. The leader is to be followed and can't really be questioned. There is order and no fuzzy questions. I'm sure it's not as bleak as I present it, I love my relatives, and they may have a superior way of being that I have. 

Figuring things out in the tribe, inside the embedded but unexamined assumptions is what being in a sangha is, in part. You can't join the sangha until you agree to the rules of joining. You don't get teachings unless you do the proper dance with the teacher. If so-and-so isn't your guru and teacher, then you have no business in sharing the fruits of that group. The group may appear to be open and welcoming and even intellectually honest, but you must get inside to get the deeper truths and support. Everyone wants support, everyone needs support. It's the price of admission to the group. That is one take on sangha.

There's a kind of rugged individualism, and I don't think Sangharakshita appreciated this aspect of the American Transcendental movement. The writings are awful, so maybe that is what his distaste was for. They're trying to create a very authentic and complex sounding way of talking that is free from the hegemony of Puritanism by replacing it with nature and classical education, which is a deeper foundation than the (then) new theology of Puritanism. Schisms, sects, blasphemy are all just brand making and living making, with hyperbole and bombastic theology. It's the fight against chaos. What is a spiritual community if you can't be sure they all have the right beliefs?

The individual rejects the call to have to think certain ways, and it's the traditionalists in Buddhism that push the secular Buddhists away. You have to think this way about rebirth or you're not a Buddhist. Right view is their justification for that way of being. They won't even explicitly say it because examining it in the light of day would mean it was objective and could be examined. 

Robert Wright is writing this book about his experience, without a teacher and sangha guiding him, is exactly what the Buddhists inside traditional sangha will warn you against. You're going to go off the rails all by yourself. See how he goes wrong?! They never explicitly say how, nevermind that detail.

To the extent he does go off the rails is going to be explicit and something objective you can discuss, but in discussing it, you've already stepped outside the sangha. You're self reliant. Discussions inside the sangha are not shared. There are million spiritual communities all around the world privately discussing things all the time. 

People talk about information bubbles, I can only tolerate so much conservative oriented political talk because it just does not compute. I don't share the assumptions, and it's too jamming to always be trying to articulate why I don't share those assumptions. One of the problems of democracy is it's profounding destabilizing to constantly be debating assumptions. We need common ground.

We're getting better at tolerating the disorientations of others, but I would argue that is at the heart of rejecting multiculturalism. Nobody is going to convince someone else to have a different personality. Everyone emphasizes both aspects of each party, but the major emphasis, is what makes the political party. In a way it's so confusing because I believe, in the abstract, many of the principles of republicans, I would just not exercise them that way, in those cases, for those decisions.

In the same confusing way that secular Buddhism and open source Buddhism is in conflict with traditional Buddhism, because our spiritual life is profoundly subjective. In the age of information, that can be quite annoying. We're not sure how to take subjective knowledge. "True for you" isn't really how we like our truths, we tend to prefer them universal and objective. We fancy all of ours are universal and objective. 

Because I have a daughter that asks questions I have a lot of weird knowledge at the moment. Some sharks lay eggs inside themselves and then they hatch inside the mother, and then they give birth to the shark later. 

The deepest well into the earth was 8km (5 miles) and cost $100 million dollars. 

We know the algorithm setting rent prices in NYC, that are counter intuitively raising rents during a near recession, and people leaving the city because of high rents. It comes from the company RealPage from Texas and is called YieldStar (source). (End of random "knowledge".)

Humanity was always asking what are the right assumptions and what do we really need to know? What should we teach children? Read, writing and arithmetic hasn't really been improved on. Religion takes on a portion of these questions. Science has stolen some of them, made it smaller, and maybe put it in it's right place as an assumption for personal psychology. Philosophy, public and objective, have taken some more. Analytical philosophy is boring, I like continental philosophy, that includes literature.

My grandfather asked me when I told him I was an atheist, "how will you know what is right and wrong?" Sure, adopting a boiler plate platform of ethics can simplify things, but still the ten precepts are really quite vague in a way, and don't really settle any problems. Utilitarianism is either simple enough to use in every case, or is so needlessly complicated that it is no longer useful for the everyman. 

The Vietnam War broke American society. The metaphysical threat of the domino theory was too abstract and perhaps wrongheaded. It opened things up for examination and questioning of assumptions. It was a profoundly difficult time that makes some people cling to tradition because of a profound feeling of disorder. My grandfather threw my mother's Bob Dylan record out the window. I have the feeling my grandfather had in those days, in our present times. Things seem out of whack. Two men in road rages shot each other's daughters (People). What the fuck is going on?

Now the metaphysical threat is climate change, and the right is denying that as the threat. One side sees disharmony in racism and culture wars, the other side sees disharmony in lack of traditionalism. Meanwhile the Alaskan crabs have left an area because of climate change.

In that opening up, in a time of profound chaos and disillusionment, was a flourishing of art and a willingness to allow in foreign influences like Buddhism. What are these times disillusioning us from?

In some ways Biden is the FDR of our times, passing sweeping legislation to the shagrin of people who only want government for police and military, to reinforce the order that is increasingly unfair. There's a lot of, "off with their heads," talk, and anger at challenged assumptions. 

The reason the 20's won't be like the 60's/70's is that conservatives have power now, and the left hasn't seized control yet, but the swing is coming. That's why the right is increasingly cheating in elections, questioning elections they don't like. 

Democracy can also have people voting for the end of democracy, in a bizarre twist. Unlike the 70's education isn't cheap, the American dream isn't being fostered by veterans who want a more calm stable life after surviving the depression and a just war. Populist politicians are gaming the information age by lying and appealing to a nefarious culture war. The information age has come to white supremacists and anti-democratic forces. Income disparity is widening the middle class has disappeared. So what is the society we're losing that we cling to? It's already gone and it never existed.

An untethered, untaught writer sharing his tales out of sangha, with backup in scientific writings, will stir up a lot of people, though mostly the best response to something you don't like is to just ignore it. Don't read it. Keep it moving.

Even sports results are surprising. Braves lost to the Phillies in the 2022 MLB playoffs? Nobody saw that coming. A huge argument about the national soccer team is about the coach trusting players he's found success with in the past, and players that are clearly in better form and are outplaying them directly, like Brandon Vazquez running past Aaron Long to score the winning goal for Cincinnati to beat Unhealthy Energy Drink sponsored team. Aaron Long is on the USA team and roundly criticized. Brandon Vazquez isn't on the team and had an amazing season. People who care about the national team are pulling out their hair because the coach has been hired by his brother, and that would be fine if he were a great coach, but he's a hugely controversial coach, and everyone is second guessing his choices. Sports drama is a nice diversion from real life drama where fathers shoot each other's daughter in road rage (People).

So that is why Robert Wright's book is so dangerous, different, interesting and confusing, for me at least.

Some people want heresy trials in Burma, want these entrenchings of tradition, enforced belief. If some secular American journalist can trumpet the virtues of Buddhism, and speak about his experiences beyond the reach of traditional Buddhist courts, what else can happen?

With a penchant for action, the republicans are busing immigrants to progressive cities. Forget asking the question "how should these people be distributed in our country?" Just distribute them to other people. They can't appeal to a federal policy because they don't like the federal government, despite all the money they get from them.


Leonard Cohen poem from Book of Longing:

(The poem represents proprietary attitude in a teacher, not open source, a sort of exclusive relationship.)


Part 2

Wright does actually talk about his teachers at IMS in Barre Massachusetts, and he does quote fellow meditators. I honestly really like this book, it reminds me of an article I once wrote about teaching mindfulness in a women's prison. 

That people are offended by this book, well, I don't think they really read it. But was that just a story I concocted in my head? I went back and read the old reddit posts from 3 years ago. It came out 5 years ago. Hardly anything negative. 5 years ago. Not much negative. Why was I so afraid of this book. They even talk about the resistance to the book.

My friend who's retired only listens to books now. I like listening because I feel like I need to train my auditory skills. And when you space out, it keeps reading, where as when I space out reading, I just put the book down or reread what I missed. Maybe that's why I'm not reading as much any more. Anyway, audio books are another interesting tool in this changing world we live in.

Also note, I really liked Wright's book on Evolutionary Psychology, The Moral Animal. (I don't think he makes up his titles.)

I don't think research can prove to me what I already know that meditation, sangha, Dharma study, devotion and ethics are right for me. But nonetheless see research below. I'll add on anything I find to this post.


Links on research:

Natural high:  “New research from the University of Utah finds that a mindfulness meditation practice can produce a healthy altered state of consciousness in the treatment of individuals with addictive behaviors."

(Published 2nd draft 10/16, edited 3rd draft 10/17/22 11am, 4th draft (part 2): 10/18) Last edited 4/4/23.