Tuesday, February 02, 2021

Today's hinderances



Sense desire: I think about sex and have a desire for intimacy. I know by experience, that I just have to let it drift away. The traditional idea of focusing on the grossness of the body doesn't really work because the mind is attracted to the attractive bits and thoughts. Then food. I also like ideas. I've been studying the Transcendentalists. Margaret Fuller, Emerson, Thoreau, Hawthorn and Alcott. Margaret is moving to New York in my biography of her. Wonder how she likes New York City. I want pleasure, I push away pain, reactively.

Ill Will: If people would just do what I want, I would be so much more happy. I have hatred of myself, for mistakes I've made in the past. That quite naturally leads to ...

Anxiety and restlessness. In the book I'm reading about the Hindrances, it talks about remorse in this section. I'm utterly filled with remorse. Eject it, and move forward positively. I've also had a lot of restlessness too. I didn't drink coffee, and I was still restless. Must be in my body. 

Sloth and Torpor: I need energy to stick to it. I almost quit 28 minutes into my 40 minute sit because my legs hurt, I'm uncomfortable. No. I will fulfill my commitment. 

Doubt: It is doubt that tells me that I could quit meditating and it wouldn't matter. 

Methods: Identify and investigate.

Britney Spears wants to meditate more.

Monday, February 01, 2021

Kimbila

 


Kimbila (Thag 1.118


As if sent by a curse,

it drops on us —

   aging.

The body seems  other,

though it's still the same one.

I'm still here

& have never been absent from it,

but I remember myself

as if somebody else's.

Hakuin's Song of Zazen

(Produced by the Zen Buddhist Order of Hsu Yun)



From the beginning all beings are Buddha.

Like water and ice, without water no ice, outside us no Buddhas.

How near the truth, yet how far we seek.

Like one in water crying, "I thirst!"

Like the son of a rich man wand'ring poor on this earth we endlessly circle the six worlds.

The cause of our sorrow is ego delusion.

From dark path to dark path we've wandered in darkness,

how can we be freed from the wheel of samsara?

The gateway to freedom is zazen Samadhi.

Beyond exaltation, beyond all our praises the pure Mahayana.

Observing the Precepts, Repentance and Giving,

the countless good deeds and the Way of Right Living, all come from zazen.

Thus one true Samadhi extinguishes evils. It purifies karma, dissolving obstructions.

Then where are the dark paths to lead us astray?

The Pure Lotus Land is not far away.

Hearing this truth, heart humble and grateful.

To praise and embrace it, to practice its Wisdom,

brings unending blessings. bring mountains of merit.

And if we turn inward and prove our True Nature, that

True Self is no-self, our own self is no-self, we go beyond ego and past clever words.

Then the gate to the oneness of cause-and-effect is thrown open.

Not two and not three, straight ahead runs the Way.

Our form now being no-form, in going and returning we never leave home.

Our thought now being no-thought, our dancing and songs are the Voice of the Dharma.

How vast is the heaven of boundless Samadhi!

How bright and transparent the moonlight of wisdom!

What is there outside us? What is there we lack?

Nirvana is openly shown to our eyes.

This earth where we stand is the pure lotus land!

And this very body, the body of Buddha.

Sunday, January 31, 2021

44 Effacements



From MN 8

Now, Cunda, you should work on self-effacement in each of the following ways.

‘Others will be cruel, but here we will not be cruel.’

‘Others will kill living creatures, but here we will not kill living creatures.’

‘Others will steal, but here we will not steal.’

‘Others will be unchaste, but here we will not be unchaste.’

‘Others will lie, but here we will not lie.’

'Others will speak divisively, but here we will not speak divisively.’

‘Others will speak harshly, but here we will not speak harshly.’

‘Others will talk nonsense, but here we will not talk nonsense.’

‘Others will be covetous, but here we will not be covetous.’

‘Others will have ill will, but here we will not have ill will.’

‘Others will have wrong view, but here we will have right view.’

‘Others will have wrong thought, but here we will have right thought.’

‘Others will have wrong speech, but here we will have right speech.’

‘Others will have wrong action, but here we will have right action.’

‘Others will have wrong livelihood, but here we will have right livelihood.’

‘Others will have wrong effort, but here we will have right effort.’

‘Others will have wrong mindfulness, but here we will have right mindfulness.’

‘Others will have wrong immersion, but here we will have right immersion.’

‘Others will have wrong knowledge, but here we will have right knowledge.’

‘Others will have wrong freedom, but here we will have right freedom.’

‘Others will be overcome with dullness and drowsiness, but here we will be rid of dullness and drowsiness.’

‘Others will be restless, but here we will not be restless.’

‘Others will have doubts, but here we will have gone beyond doubt.’

‘Others will be irritable, but here we will be without anger.’

‘Others will be hostile, but here we will be without hostility.’

‘Others will be offensive, but here we will be inoffensive.’

‘Others will be contemptuous, but here we will be without contempt.’

‘Others will be jealous, but here we will be without jealousy.’

‘Others will be stingy, but here we will be without stinginess.’

‘Others will be devious, but here we will not be devious.’

‘Others will be deceitful, but here we will not be deceitful.’

‘Others will be stubborn, but here we will not be stubborn.’

‘Others will be arrogant, but here we will not be arrogant.’

‘Others will be hard to admonish, but here we will not be hard to admonish.’

‘Others will have bad friends, but here we will have good friends.’

‘Others will be negligent, but here we will be diligent.’

‘Others will be faithless, but here we will have faith.’

‘Others will be conscienceless, but here we will have a sense of conscience.’

‘Others will be imprudent, but here we will be prudent.’

‘Others will be uneducated, but here we will be well educated.’

‘Others will be lazy, but here we will be energetic.’

‘Others will be unmindful, but here we will be mindful.’

‘Others will be witless, but here we will be accomplished in wisdom.’

‘Others will be attached to their own views, holding them tight, and refusing to let go, but here we will not be attached to our own views, not holding them tight, but will let them go easily.’

Imbolc is a Gaelic traditional festival marking the beginning of spring.



Imbolc lands about halfway between the winter solstice and the spring equinox, Feb. 1st.

I just like the pagan culture because of it's love of nature, and curious collection of traits a god will have. Brigid the early deity of Ireland, "is considered the patroness of poetry, smithing, medicine, arts and crafts, cattle and other livestock, sacred wells, serpents (in Scotland) and the arrival of early spring."

"Brigid was said to visit one's home at Imbolc. To receive her blessings, people would make a bed for Brigid and leave her food and drink, and items of clothing would be left outside for her to bless. Brigid was also evoked to protect homes and livestock. Special feasts were had, holy wells were visited, and it was a time for divination."


Links

Brigid (Jones' Celtic Encyclopedia on Way Back Machine.)

Brigid (Wikipedia)

Imbolc

Goddess Brigid Chant (Soundcloud)

Cailleach is a divine hag, a creator deity, a weather deity, and an ancestor deity. In modern Scottish folklore studies, she is also known as Beira, Queen of Winter.

Monday, January 25, 2021

Stillness Flowing: The Life and Teachings of Ajahn Chah by by Ajahn Jayasaro



Luang Por Chah is known as Ajahn Chah (1918 – 1992) was an influential Thai Forest tradition teacher.

There's an audiobook of the biography that I'm listening to.

One of his early teachers was Ajahn Mun. He spent 7 years in the wilderness. The tradition follows great austerity, the 13 Dhutanga. They had basic clothing, ate one meal a day that they got from lay people offering the monk food, not only going to rich houses, but to all houses. Living not in a house, but under a tree. Living near charnel grounds is good. Sleeping rough, wherever, though never laying down. Only sit, walk or stand. Pretty intense practices.

Like many revitalizing practices, this movement was a reaction to a kind of watering down of the tradition.

Like all teachers, a basic common sense and a kind of intensity seeps through the teachings. Ajahn Chah ran a tight ship for quite a long while at his monastery. His disciples found that he exemplified what he was expecting from others.  

For whatever reason, after my upbringing in the Triratna Buddhist Community, I've been attracted to these teachings the most. And I find the biographies interesting. Heroes to admire.

I don't feel the need to resolve contradictory urges (I am large, I contain the multitudes). I also have the urge for self reliance, inspired by Emerson's essay. What I think and feel matters most. But I like to be inspired by others exemplification. 

Saturday, January 23, 2021

On the mend

My symptoms are decreasing after 9 days. 

I think it might have been a mistake to take nyquil because it has alcohol in it. 

I'm still tired, congested, short of breath, but I never got the lost of taste or smell. My headache was in part due to quitting coffee. I went 3 days without coffee, and I'm back on a cup when I wake up.

Glad I had a pulse oximeter so I would know if I needed to go to the hospital.

Thank you to the city for offering a hotel room, offering to run errands outside so I didn't have to break quarantine. I used none of those services, but if I'd needed them they would have meant a lot to me.

I forgot to wash my hands before I pet the cat. Opse. Hope Ella doesn't get it. Apparently you can give Covid to your cat. Be careful and mindful. One little slip of mindfulness could mean another's death.

I've been outside to move my car, and to put out the trash, but I didn't go near anyone.

I'm not some dope drinking a bottle of water to prove that I've survived it, that it wasn't deadly to me. I didn't get any drugs to speed my recovery, I didn't get any high tech medical care unavailable to the masses. Just texts from a city monitoring my progress. I did have the support of a loving family. Thank you.

Back to Buddhism. Buddhism lost another teacher in Joanne Friday

May all beings be happy may all beings be well.

Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Covid update



The whole house has it, the baby is just sneezing, maybe she doesn't have it. Partner was throwing up all last night.

My throat just keeps getting more soarer and soarer. I took a steamy shower and that helped. Tylenol. 

Lots of different advice. My aunt told me to get up and walk around every 2 hours. 

I got an oximeter from a relative. Dr. said goto hospital if it stays around 92.

I have high blood pressure, and I haven't gone in to get a new prescription. One thing or another comes up. My doctor doesn't return my pages. 

But My Chart from NYC has a talk to a doctor online feature, so I got a doctor online without waiting too much. So my son is going to get my meds, get some supplies and deliver them. 

Lots of family and friends reaching out, I feel loved. I wish everyone well. 

Monday, January 18, 2021

My analysis of why Trump is guilty of murders of American people

Trump's failures around Covid will be debated into eternity. You can't put every death at his feet, even in the countries that did it right, there were deaths. If you compare the graph for New Zealand Covid to the graph of USA, I can't help but see the initial bump that was the worst for New Zealand, is just a small bump for America, which keeps getting worse wave after wave. New Zealand did it right but still 25 people have died from Covid. Adjust that for population and that's about 1,673 cases would have been in USA if we'd been as effective as New Zealand. Now maybe it's harder to control more people, and there are a billion other reasons why New Zealand could do well, and the USA could not, but if you subtract say 2K from the USA total, we would only have 396K instead 398K dead recorded today. Well, that 2K, wildly exaggerated round up, would not be much of a drop in the bucket compared to nearly 400K. OK, maybe he is guilty of pretty much murdering 396K odd people so far. 

Could the USA president have done what the New Zealand Prime Minister did? Is the USA's ideas of freedom make wearing a mask feel like a totalitarian move that the right wing would resist? Was Trump's inaction really just rubber stamping what the right wing would have done anyway? Is there more travel to the USA, is a larger population harder to control? We'll never know. What we will see is how much Biden's leadership and actually addressing the issue will mean to driving down numbers, past expectations, which is another metaphysic.

Some people say Sweden didn't enact measures and hoped for herd immunity. They say that is a valid strategy. High stakes games.

Basically if you drank Trump's kool aid, then you don't see it as his fault. If you hate Trump like I do, you do see it all as his fault. It's hard to figure out where the objective truth lies. The post-truth era of Trump has decreased the size of shared reality. I'm not sure what to do with that. 

The Civil war was 650K, but I bet we get close to that, and for that I blame the south.

I have Covid, I'll record the journey here, to the extent I can.

Today is MLK Day 2021, a Monday, January 18.

Two days ago I had a headache, consistent with past sinus infections, but the cold didn't come down. My body was achy, but my doctor friend said that might be aging achiness, or heart failure. He's kind of sarcastic, and retired. I wasn't having any chest pressure, or trouble breathing. I had a sore throat, but two nights of nyquil had that OK, and I'd been sleeping 12-14 hours a day. But I ran out of nyquil and woke up this morning with a really sore throat, and now I can feel a light pressure on my chest. My oximeter is on the way to help me determine if I need to go to the hospital. Maybe I'll borrow someone else's if it doesn't come.

We've been fairly quarantined. I did leave the house and go the library, pick up a book on a table and check a book out. Wore a mast there. And the day before I went to the park with my daughter for 2 hours but I didn't get close to anyone, and wore a mask.

My co-parenting partner was angry that I didn't tell her immediately, but I wasn't sure I was sick and I wasn't sure if I was just being paranoid. I spent a few hours saying goodbye to everyone in my head, and then felt that that was foolish. If I've ever met you, I really loved our time together and am just really grateful for all the wonderful experiences I have had. 

I felt worse after she went to work and then told her the next day. She wanted me to address the situation quickly, but I did not know she needed documentation to avoid work, and quarantine with me. I also wasn't sure how sick I was and/or I was sick and not thinking clearly. 

Anyway, we went to the local library which was set up as a testing center. Waited in line outside in the cold--I'm sure that didn't help my health, and it also didn't spread it being outside, socially distanced and with a mask on.

I got the results today that I tested positive for Covid-19. Coincidentally I feel worse today. Now it's all calls to my doctor and others trying to figure out what to do.

When we were tested they told us alkaline water, Mucinex and vitamin C

I honestly only felt slightly ill the previous two days and I did spend some time in close proximity to my daughter and co-parenting partner. I really hope they don't get it. My daughter's test results haven't come through but she was tested on Saturday. My co-parenting partner tested negative. She came in and told me to not touch our cat, the cat can carry it to them.


In College I read The Denial of Death by Ernest Becker, a fascinating book about Otto Rank that won the Pulitzer prize. Since then I have read many books on death and dying, took a course in social work school on the topic. 

I don't know how much of the above prepared me for the Buddhist acceptance of death and dying as a natural thing. One time I told my father that we come into the world pretty mellow. He said no we don't, thinking about attending my birth. I meant conception, being inside. That's when we begin, though we're not separate from our mothers then and shortly after birth for a while. Mother and child are one for a while, I learned in social work school, studying attachment theory. Being born is a trauma that we must recover from according to Otto Rank. 

Anyway, I think it's Buddhism that says the arrow is in the air and will fall to earth. Also the bubble, and even waves are metaphors for life. The only surprise of death is in association with denial. I sometimes wonder if we would have a more sane politics if people were more aware they would die. Would more people be like Atwater who regretted his politics at the end of his life?

I have a lot of regrets in my life, of hurting people through greed, selfishness and delusion, but I don't really feel like I need to experience more life at this time. I'd had an awesome life.

I really hope my children are OK, and if anyone is in a position to help my children or their mothers, I greatly appreciate that. I am prepared to die to some extent, though I may be kidding myself. I'm always wary of kidding myself, aping spiritual advancement that hasn't happened. Start where you are, right?! Avoid spiritual bypassism. 

In the USA mortality rate is below 2 percent if I can make out all the graphs and numbers. My age, my HTN and my obesity contribute to an increased chance, not sure how much. So I like my chances. This is by no means a death sentence. 

And there is no place you can go that makes your immune to death. I've read science fiction that had the fantasy of one day technology solving all the aging issues, but that is not here yet. I see tantalizing articles about discoveries about aging, but I'm not seeing anyone reversing it yet. 

I'll update with anything interesting. 

Correct me if I'm wrong

I've always been surprised that Sangharakshita didn't like the Transcendentalists. It's the perfect foil for puritanism. An appreciation of high art and nature. Striving for the best things without the metaphysics of it all. 

On the other hand, the writings are not easy to read. 

On the other hand, Emerson was quite into friendship.

Tuesday, January 12, 2021

A response to Christopher Titmuss

I like Christopher Titmuss' talk on FBA. But his post after the attempted coup, clangs with me. Of course you can always point out the delusion of delusions, the American dream for one. But I just don't see that that is the apt point at the moment.

I don't know how provocative he's trying to be. He takes talking points of conservatives when he points out that black lives mattered when Obama was president, ignoring the increase in police violence, and the increase in the police force of right wing people acting not just as police, but also judge and jury, and the permission that Trump gave these people to be out in the open with their white supremacy. 

Yes, if you're looking for a perfect world in the political realm, you're likely to be very frustrated. The Buddhist path is a path that will bring great rewards.

Here is my response:

A president can't harness every instinct in America. He has to choose. Biden was hoping to inspire law and order, after a president that is historically criminal. I don't think you have to take care of and account for the Trump supporters when you become president. Most Americans accept the political process, but those who stormed the capital did not, and are being punished for their crimes.

I'm not sure if that's the time to point out that the American dream contributes to people's suffering. I wouldn't go to a school after a gunman shoots down people and tell them that well, in the end, you're suffering if you don't start the Buddha's path. There's a bit of a clang there. Of course we can empathize with how people got to the point where they felt compelled to do such a thing, and I have enough empathy for everyone, but read the room dude.


 



Sunday, January 10, 2021

Devotion

I challenge you to put Mahasuka's mantra in the background for a little while and not find yourself singing it later. I was just in the kitchen washing dishes and making some food and I found myself 

I cleave towards the secular Buddhism, and I dislike religious metaphysics, and theology. I find reading Buddhism to inspiration to meditate, and meditation is the key to Buddhism. For me. I don't make any claims about how Buddhism should be. I believe in exploring what works for you. And what working for you is something you know in your heart, and don't have to define it, though it would help to work it through with trusted friends.

It was to my utmost surprise when I fell in love with the puja, devotional chanting on my first retreat, and in conjunction with reading Sangharakshita's book on the puja. 

I believe that a mantra can put you in an adjacent mindful head space, call to mind a head space when you were on retreat and chanting a mantra. I am forever grateful to the guys who helped me to record an Amoghasiddhi mantra that I loved. I am grateful to a friend who sent me a copy of someone chanting a longer mantra, a purifying mantra. I also am grateful to a friend who gave me a CD of choral mantras. I am grateful to another friend who shared with me an Amitabha mantra. These sounds feel precious to me, important, helpful. I take refuge in the sangha.

I've never met Mahasukha. I haven't gone on a Buddhafield retreat. I hear they are wonderful. He has albums on the above link to Bandcamp and he has links to other stuff like his YouTube page. But I greatly appreciate his sharing of beautiful mantras. I just watched this video on Avalokita mantra; He explains, meditates for 7 minutes, and then the mantra begins around 9:30. It's an interesting version. 


Friday, January 08, 2021

Sedition and Coup attempt

I was pretty upset with the attempted coup. I rarely watch the news, but I streamed some CBSN and CNN. As always I read the NY Times, check in on Google News and Reddit. I listen and read Heather Cox Richardson on Facebook and in her emails.

I'm not sure if I want detachment and equanimity on such days. I called my friends. My friend was blase, and my parents talked more about the quarantine and their friends. I went for a walk. 

I asked what my ideas were about America that made me think sedition and pathetic coup attempt were so horrible.

The idea that keeps coming back to me is the idea of equality before the law. To me that means that it doesn't matter who you are, we are all equally responsible to follow the laws of the land. Nobody is above the laws. Trump wrote a executive order that sought to punish protesters of lawful government, that will apply to this protest.

If America doesn't want this to happen again, they were prosecute the people who broke the law. It's not a political matter. And there's no moving on or ignoring the laws. I know a lot of laws are not enforced. I'm pretty sure everyone who drives speeds at some point. There are people who don't drive, how do they break the law? Most people fib, but that's not against the law. Most people are fairly law abiding.

I have found a selfish reason to be ethical. Experiments in free flowing ethics have lead to difficult meditating. Because we are all connected, it's considerate to follow the laws. I've found that selfishly, being kind and considerate is very important to me. When successful it can even lead to the gladdening. The Gladdening is when you haven't created a karmic debt, and feel good about your contribution to the world. Veganism adds to my gladdening. I have too many regrets in my life to feel the gladdening personally, but I wish to cut down on my regrets, and move forward in a positive way. I just feel better when I try to be nice. It's easy to imagine you have exception to the rules, but it's quite complicated to really justify breaking the rules.

I do support peaceful protests, attempts to improve governance. I don't experience the attempted coup, to interrupt the certifying of the presidency as a protest. With 5 people dead, that's not a protest, breaking the law to interrupt a fair election, one that the idea of "stealing" is preposterous, that's a coup, and Trump's words were seditious and a factor in that. 

(I find it funny that Trump told Pence he's not his friend any more like some toddler. He's going to want a pardon soon, so maybe he should be nicer to Pence.) 

Also terrible is the woman who called up C-Span and asked if it wasn't true that the election was stolen. It took people dying for her to question the death cult spin she'd previously accepted. There has been a systematic effort at disinformation that is pernicious as well. The volume of crimes and lying by the president is disheartening even for people who remained in the republican party. Most people with integrity resigned from the republican party. I respect those people. The cabinet members who resigned after the attempted coup were like the people who unbuckle their seatbelts on a plane just before it stops, they've already gone for the ride.

In my opinion, Trump is responsible for the 350K+ deaths in the USA. New Zealand had 25 deaths, and projecting it out to the USA population, that's much less than 2K. So you can basically say that Trump is responsible for whatever number we have minus 2K, which seems insignificant. Basically he's responsible for not leading the country towards a non-New Zealand result. Maybe no US president could have steered the USA to such a good result. Maybe we're too stupid or too uncontrollable or whatever it is that would make us unable to get New Zealand results. Maybe. That Trump did not try put the consequences at his feet. 

Two days later, we see book deals canceled, attempts to identify and bring to justice those who have participated in this attempted coup. 

To those who make light of it, say they just certified in the evening what was interrupted in the afternoon. There have been efforts to say it was left wing people trying to pin trouble on the right--that is disproven, and shows that perhaps they do that on the other side. It's a question how much of the protests have been right wing thugs trying to smear left wing protests. That certainly happened in Nazi Germany, and recently in America. The parallels to Nazi Germany were not lost on many. The wannabe dictator Trump has been voted out of office. On the larger level, democracy worked, but to many it seems slow and reluctant to figure out what crimes a sitting president has commited. 

Of course we don't want lawsuits and whatnot to plague a sitting president. That is a republican move to depower a president, bring up indictments that are in fact baseless. Clinton's emails come to mind. The Hunter Biden narrative comes to mind. Bill Clinton getting a blow job comes to mind. The 20+ sexual assault cases brought against Trump will have to wait for him to leave office. Perhaps that is one of the reasons he doesn't want to leave office.

Most of the republican dirty tricks are perhaps not illegal. Ballooning the deficit and then turning into deficit hawks for Democrats is one. They don't want to roll out entitlements the people get used to, so they look like they're taking them away when they eventually come back into power.

My question is will he be removed before his time is up? And will he remain in America and where will he go if he doesn't remain here? He committed more crimes than Nixon, for sure, and Nixon resigned so he could get pardoned. 

Will the pardoning laws be rewritten? Will the electoral college be abolished, so the popular vote isn't even in question? Of course some bozo can come along and challenge the vote count, but from what I've heard this last election was a quite good one. There's not even a question that Trump lost, but yet there are people that believe that because he said it, and he has claimed the mainstream media is never truthful, only he speaks the truth. So there's no checks and balances if you just listen to him.

In the end, I think what I've learned from the politics of the Trump administration is that we can't turn our gaze away from politics, as repugnant as it can be. Tolerating frustration and not knowing is a key skill in this.

I also need to understand why it appears so upsetting. In a very real way there's a confrontation of the abstract and the real. There are paradoxes between freedom and rights. The freedom of speech does not include sedition. The ideals overlap, and can be contradictory at times. The judgement to negotiate these guideposts is what governing and politics is all about. Politics is a weird combination of the abstract and the concrete. That's why it befuddles me so much.

One of the touchstones I retreat to in a crisis is the Buddha, the Dharma and the Sangha. The Buddha doesn't have anything that is specifically relevant to this situation. But I have to admit that I lost some equanimity on January 6th. I had techniques and skills to regain my equanimity, and I was careful not to act out and base serious decisions on my upset state of mind.

Two days later I can process in public some of the happenings. I am in favor of punishing the coup attempt actors to the full extent of the law. They just certified the election in the evening instead of the afternoon, and Biden can be said to have no impediments for anyone to object to, to assuming the presidency January 20th. Five people died as a result of the shenanigans, so I don't see any reason to trivialize this event. Once again Trump's rhetoric was underestimated. America's exceptionalism in foreign policy is dead. I'm not sure if I even believed in it, but to me, it's clearly not even a question. 

I want to add that I'm disgusted to the level of political debate the country has sunken to. Up to the Trump presidency the political discourse mostly was at a higher level. I hope we can go back to debate, reason, common sense and concern for all Americans and minimize paranoid delusions and conspiracy theories. As far as I can tell the Trump administration stood for undermining public discourse, the press, enriching the rich and incompetence in federal government.

For me the heroes are the women who brought the sealed ceremonial electoral vote documents with them when they had to flee.

For me the hero is Heather Cox Richardson putting all this into historical context. I just got another email in my inbox, I'm going to read now.

To me the republican party is dead, they have betrayed "rejects monarchy, aristocracy, and hereditary political power; expects citizens to be virtuous and faithful in their performance of civic duties; and vilifies corruption." They will need a new leader to move forward. My hope is that at least the sedition and attempted coup forbid Trump from keeping power of the republican party and running in 2024. That is yet to be determined.

Ajahn Chah quote

 Like and Dislike

"If we still don’t know like and dislike as they arise, there is still some concern in our minds.  If we know the truth of these things, we reflect, ‘Oh, there is nothing to this feeling of liking here.  It’s just a feeling that arises and passes away.

Dislike is nothing more, just a feeling that arises and passes away.  Why make anything out of them?’ 

If we think that pleasure and pain are personal possessions, then we’re in for trouble, we never get beyond the point of having some concern or other in an endless chain.

This is how things are for most people."

Ajahn Chah

Wednesday, December 30, 2020

Early morning


My best routine is to wake up, read some, and meditate. Today I read Anamatagga Samuta (see below SN 15.3)


It's a full moon today. When the Buddha was alive, at one point, he told the monks to scatter, and teach the Dharma. Perhaps the area could not support so many monks easily. But they would gather on a full moon, stay up all night discussing the dharma. The popularity of the Dharma where the Buddha taught it is in contrast to the vicious battling of doctrines of Jesus. The Life of Brian captures it.


I had an image of a father meditating with his two daughters. One daughter meditated smooshed alongside the father. In a way, I do that with the Buddha. 

In my Buddhanasati, remembrance of the Buddha, I imagine the Buddha inviting me to meditate at a tree nearby him. He beckons me to meditate.


I always struggle with the neutral in metta, my attention easily wanders away from someone I little hate or love. But I also struggle with the enemy, the person I am in discord with. I think about the woman who would not stop honking even though I asked her to because my daughter was sleeping upstairs. She perhaps isn't confident backing out of the street, which is what I do when someone is blocking the street too long. But I forgive her easily, it was so long ago. People just have traits I despise in myself, like Trump's transparent narcissism. I loathe that in myself. So I can hate the traits I disown, and pretend are not part of me. But I can even forgive those. What is the true enemy? Is it my lack of willpower to meditate every day? That's even easy to forgive. I think metta really does work.


SN 15.3 Assu Sutta: Tears

At Savatthi. "Bhikkhus, this samsara is without discoverable beginning. A first point is not discerned of beings roaming and wandering on hindered by ignorance and fettered by craving What do you think, bhikkhus, which is more: the stream of tears that you have shed as you roamed and wandered on through this long course, weeping and wailing because of being united with the disagreeable and separated from the agreeable-this or the water in the four great oceans?"

"As we understand the Dhamma taught by the Blessed One, venerable sir, the stream of tears that we have shed as we roamed and wandered through this long course, weeping and wailing because of being united with the disagreeable and separated from the agreeable-this alone is more than the water in the four great oceans."

"Good, good, bhikkhus! It is good that you understand the Dhamma taught by me in such a way. The stream of tears that you have shed as you roamed and wandered through this long course, weeping and wailing because of being united with the disagreeable and separated from the agreeable-this alone is ​more than the water in the four great oceans. For a long time, bhikkhus, you have experienced the death of a mother; as you have experienced this, weeping and wailing because of being united with the disagreeable and separated from the agreeable, the stream of tears that you have shed is more than the water in the four great oceans. "

"For a long time, bhikkhus, you have experienced the death of a father ... the death of a brother ... the death of a sister ... the death of a son ... the death of a daughter ... the loss of relatives ... the loss of wealth ... loss through illness; as you have experienced this, weeping and wailing because of being united with the disagreeable and separated from the agreeable, the stream of tears that you have shed is more than the water in the four great oceans. For what reason? Because, bhikkhus, this samsara is without discoverable beginning .... It is enough to experience revulsion towards all formations, enough to become dispassionate towards them, enough to be liberated from them."

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Haiku



Haiku isn't necessarily a Buddhist or Zen mode of communication, but you can't help but getting Buddhism with anything created in Japan, one of the countries that punished Christians trying to subvert Buddhism (see Silence 1966 novel by Shūsaku Endō or the 2016 Martin Scorsese film Silence). The samurai influence modern Star Wars movies, there's a hint of Buddhism in that because the samurai come from 12th century Japan.

My father does Haiku and other forms of Japanese poetry, and he just came out with a new book.

So when I saw this Natalie Goldberg book, I jumped at it because I've read Banana Rose. When you look at her publishing list, it's mostly about writing. Anyway, Haiku! Looking forward to read it.

Monday, December 28, 2020

Poem by Thoreau

 


Joy, delight and other positive emotions

I've never heard of Jill Shepherd before, but somehow I got hipped to this podcast. I particularly liked the idea that pain is like velcro and pleasure is like teflon. 

I've noticed that after about 10 minutes my mind settles, and there is a spaciousness. In the mindfulness of breathing, as I settle into my body, I listen for the rapture and bliss of stage 5 and 6 of anapanasati. My hope is to get better at hearing/feeling these subtle feelings. There is a kind of opening up of the positive side.

Shepherd talks about surprise at opening up to the positive side of meditation because of people's questions when she became a teacher, and how she was prone to focusing on the ascetic aspects, but that it was the Buddha abandoning the ascetic path that allowed him to have his memory of Dhyana


Links

Scroll down for her bio.

She's not to be confused with 2007 Miss Utah.

Sunday, December 27, 2020

Grogu and refuge tree



This is the opening of Barak Obama's presidential memoir, which I'm reading right now.
 


I know "the force" isn't exactly Buddhism, it's more like the Zen influenced Samurai, but I like Grogu, even if he eats frog eggs and frogs. My daughter got one for Buddhamas and I put it on my shrine because she didn't watch Mandalorian and I have. It's kind of funny to me, but also expresses that when Star Wars came out in 1977 and I was 10 years old, I really liked it, and the hero's journey is important to me. I know all the stuff since Empire Strikes Back has been watered down milking of a franchise, but I still enjoy Star Wars stuff.

The refuge tree is more important to me, size wise. My preceptor gave me the refuge tree. I appreciate our time together even if we are estranged at the moment. 

Thursday, December 24, 2020

The Friend by Sigrid Nunez

I'm reading Sigrid Nunez's The Friend and she's describing a woman she knew who was a good writer, but took a meditation retreat, and lost her interest in writing fiction for others. Never heard of that, but

Happy Buddhamas

 


Sunday, December 20, 2020

Reading up on Yule

I'm a Buddhist who loves mythology, anthropology, Jungian archetypes, non-Jungian archetypes, and all kinds of thinking, not just emotional or rational.

Wikipedia Is German about the collective female spirit Dis, and for Anglo-Saxons it's Mōdraniht.

The Dises by Dorothy Hardy

For the Celts they had Des Matrona


For Anglo-Saxons it's Mōdraniht, or Mother Night. For the Romans it was Saturnalia.

The tradition is Dongzhi in China and throughout Asia. There is a connection to yin and yang. 

Makar Sankranti in Hindu India, which is January 14/15.

Yaldā Night in Iran, where they can read Hafez, the height of Persian literature, late into the night.

Vegan memes






 

Thursday, December 17, 2020

Poem



I sit and Look Out by Walt Whitman

I sit and look out upon all the sorrows of the world, and upon all oppression and shame 

I hear secret convulsive sobs from young men at anguish with themselves, remorseful after deeds done,

I see in low life the mother misused by her children, dying, neglected, gaunt, desperate 

I see the wife misused by her husband, I see the treacherous seducer of young women 

I mark the ranklings of jealousy and unrequited love attempted to be hid, I see these sights on the earth 

I see the workings of battle, pestilence, tyranny, I see martyrs and prisoners, 

I observe a famine at sea, I observe the sailors casting lots who shall be kill’d to preserve the lives of the rest 

I observe the slights and degradations cast by arrogant persons upon laborers, the poor, and upon negroes and the like;

All these-all the meanness and agony without end I sitting looking out upon,

See, hear, and am silent.

Tuesday, December 15, 2020

Book of the Year 2020


My Dharma reading has focused more on the Pali Canon, but I did read a wonderful book called The Circle of the Way, and it filled me in on historical Buddhist figures I'd never heard of before.

Thursday, December 10, 2020

The meaning of Buddhamas



We make up the world with our minds. Syncretism is the one true religion. We weave together a bunch of traditions that we experienced. I grew up in a Christian tradition. I pulled a Christmas tree down on me as a toddler. I remember the joy and wonder of an electric train set. 

On one level it's a celebration to stave off the depression of winter solstice. Saturnalia, and our pagan roots were co-opted by Christianity. 

Winter equinox is different for every location on this earth. We choose time zones so we can find a common time. With 5 time zones, we choose it as a country to focus on the 25th of December. Also there are north and south issues, Florida is sub-tropical and inland north, you can get quite brutal winter conditions. Where you are is important. I spent an Xmas with a friend and his family in England when I did my year abroad and I'm forever grateful to him for inviting me. Very kind.

Then I guessed that Santa Clause didn't exist. The disappointment in my grandmother's face. The loss of innocence. 

I was a jerk about a present I didn't like from my uncle. He was nice enough to think of me, and I wasn't mature about it. 

Then there is the turn, watching others and thinking of others. Turning towards generosity. I struggled with that and gave my first wife crappy presents. 

One time at the at the institute for psychotherapy the teacher asked if anyone didn't like the holiday season. Nobody raised their hands, so I raised my hand to just say something. I disliked the obligatoriness of gift giving. The teacher said I was selfish. Merry christmas to him, my present to him was to give him that smugness. 

In 2002 I shifted from atheist to Buddhist. Bodhi Day celebrates the Buddha enlightenment on December 8th. I read the Dharma, meditate, try to teach my daughter about Buddhism, and congregate with sangha when not in a pandemic. I suppose I try to keep that going.

Another tradition is making merry and feasting. I'm an alcoholic and a drug abuser, so I can no longer imbibe in alcohol or marijuana. That's another loss of innocence, of sorts. I was not up to facing life sober, and it caused a lot of trouble. I have mental health issues, depression. Alcohol doesn't help that either but it seemed to get me through challenging times. There's a part of me that still misses the ability to numb myself during the holidays, even though I know that is forbidden to me now. 

The lack of sun triggers a kind of seasonal affective disorder. Celebrating during the winter solstice is hypomanic response to this challenge. Let's make merry in a sober way. Kiss the joys as they pass by. 

My 4 year old daughter's mother wants her to know she's buying the presents, not Santa Clause. 

Because negative reinforcement isn't the best, Krampusnacht isn't emphasized. I told my daughter since she's a good girl, Krampus didn't come get her. 

We had elf on a shelf for my sons, not sure what they got out of that. 

I kind of worry about my daughter's greed, but it's fairly innocent. I look forward to watching her open all her presents. 

My stepfather is a secular Jew, so we also had a menorah. The festival of lights. I live on the edge of a Jewish neighborhood in NYC. So we are not just in a Christian atmosphere, there are other Abrahamic religions. Muslims are about. I forget the number I saw, but there are many religious festivals around this time and my awareness of that leads me to say "happy holidays". 

As a Buddhist, we have a tree, and will be giving my daughter presents. It's a special time of the year. 

I was watching Community, where Abed's mother can't meet with him, and he must find a new meaning of Christmas. Every year I find a meaning of Buddhamas. These are my thoughts this year. 

I have lots of great memories, and for that I am truly grateful. I've led a lucky life. A pivotal movie is It's A Wonderful Life. Would the world be a better place without you? Of course not. Sometimes the dark undertow can threaten to sweep me out into depressive waters, but in my heart I know I am worthwhile, and I provide goodness into the world. We have a negativity bias, because that helps us to survive, but in the end I am a net good person. 

I am very grateful for so many things, but during the holiday season it's for family. I love my family. Just like winter solstice, the point at which you experience it is different for everyone, so to, the point in a family is different for everyone. From the youngest to the oldest, in those near and those far. Family isn't just blood relatives, it's also friends. 

I'll kiss the delights as they pass by this year. 

May everyone be happy, may everyone be well. 

Monday, December 07, 2020

Bodhi Day December 8th 2020



The day before Bodhi Day, I meditated metta (universal lovingkindness). I realized (again and again and again) the hard one was neutral. I spin off quite easily. But recently I'd seen that a 16 year old never went to online class without his infant sibling on their lap. I thought of all the teenagers who the weight of responsibility has shifted to, because of the circumstances of Covid.

For me, the enemy is usually my shadow, the pervert, liar, power mode instead of love mode, exploiter, insensitive, unempathetic, stupid. I hate in others traits that I have in myself. I wrote a friend who I'd complains and complained about Trump, how I was like him.

Life happened slower with the Buddha. There were fewer screens. He had very different circumstances. But we can do what he did. We can meditate to gain insight into our own suffering and work to transcend the normal. 

The Buddha became enlightened. December 8th we celebrate that. May all being be happy may all being be well.

I listened to a talk by Bob Thurman on abuses, and thought it was a really good talk.


Links:

NPR with Takashi Miyaji: Miyaji is a Shin Buddhist Professor. They have a special service in Shin Buddhism, where they chant. He chants on the 6 minute interview.

Saturday, December 05, 2020

Happy Krampusnacht

 


Tonight the Krampus roams about punishing naughty children.


My daughter reports Krampus didn't visit her. She's a good girl.

Parade

Sunday, November 29, 2020

epistemology psychological point

I love an epistemology psychological point. Racism is hard to see if you don't personally experience it. 

Rev. Myokei Caine-Barrett is interviewed in this video on racism and Buddhism.

Post on Reddit

Saturday, November 28, 2020

Zorba The Greek



1. I read this book in the 80's for a comparative literature class, and didn't pick up on the Buddhism. At that time I was years away from trying meditation and reading Zen stuff and scratching my head. Unmemorable essays mean I didn't completely engage my meaning systems. 

I'm reading it again and surprised to find Buddhism in the mix in the meditations on liberty. It's not clear what ideas Kazantzakis has about Buddhism. His writing a life of the Buddha is seen as intellectual. Zorba is someone who seems fairly spontaneous and in the moment, seems to try and squeeze all the joys out of life, but he shoots for the middle, not the top or the bottom. The narrator stays up all night writing an essay about Buddhism but doesn't mention it thereafter. Zorba thinks he's too much in his head, but he has interesting art memories, enjoys literature, and likes to think. The novel sets up a duality between learned, and spontaneous, meditating on liberty and freedom, with a side of Buddhism.

I don't believe you really engage with Buddhism unless you meditate. For Kazantzakis, it's unclear the source of his knowledge. He engages at the sort of pop level, the intellectual level, but he's a deep thinker. At least he's thinking about it. 

He tries to be celibate, but without the benefit of meditative states. He's OK during the day, but at night he hungers for companionship. He often leans on his friendship for entertainment, but sometimes Zorba doesn't want to entertain him, play music for him. 

From his wikipedia page: "As he traveled Europe, he was influenced by various philosophers, cultures, and religions, like Buddhism, causing him to question his Christian beliefs." (cite)

2. There was an interesting exchange on Reddit that got deleted. Someone quoted what Zorba said about a Russian guy who expressed himself through dance. The women resisted being raped, but then gave into it with pleasure. Surely that's not woke enough for today's people. But the person was pointing out that perhaps the writer wasn't condoning what Zorba was saying. One little sentence is an amazing book, and a youth feel entitled to cancel the book. Of course rape culture is terrible and assumes perhaps that women even want it, but he's saying that's what a Russian guy said through dance, and Zorba, a character in a novel was reporting it. Since it was reported in a dance, it's probably not very accurate communication and probably Zorba was projecting. I have no desire to defend Zorba, he's not really a hero of mine. But it's an interesting and complex novel. Zorba does have offensive ideas about women. It's part of the character study. Do you want him to get some comeuppance in the novel to show that the writer has a sense of justice? I guess I wouldn't mind, but then it stops being Dionysian and becomes Apollonian. I don't imagine I'll get my ideas about woman from Zorba. The larger point of Zorba is that men are alienated from their bodies. And who's to say if you aren't alienated from your body that you can't communicate through dance. The narrator sees Zorba as a relic of the past, that is not apt for modern times (published 1946, it will be even more so for our current times.) But he also admires his spontaneity, the easy joy he has, unfettered by anxiety or qualms.

3. Zorba is a sexist git. He has rape fantasies, and he thinks he's god's gift to women. He preys on lonely widows. He is not to be read during since we have had the #metoo era. He is an obsolete kind of hero.

4. Zorba is very tender towards women. He tells the story of his grandmother. The local guys would come and serenade the beautiful young woman across the street, and she thought it was for her. Zorba relieved her of this dream, and apparently she went downhill and died very quickly after that. She said he killed her. I think of that line from Sheryl Crow song, "lie to me, I promise to believe."

5. Zorba is the Buddha because he has beginners mind. He looks at narcissi as though for the first time. He considers wine as though for the first time. He is integrated with his body and can communicate still through dance. He can smell a book waffler a mile away. He gets absorbed in his activities, to the exclusion of all else. The concentration is seen as similar to the Buddha. 

6. He thinks everything is alive. That's an animist. I kind of like that because it would naturally lead to environmentalism, IMHO. 

7. He says if you look at water with a magnifying glass, you'll see all the worms in it. He sees the narrator as dying of thirst because of intellectualism. He's cultured, he reads, writes, and went to museums all over Europe. 

8. Page 182 he mentions meditation but it seems to be thinking about a book he's reading. But the book came out in 1946, and I am sure it was revolutionary in it's way of considering Buddhism, as flawed and minimal as it is.

9. Zorba talks about starting Zeus Marriage Agency. He would pay guys to go sleep with the undesirable women. He says if he can't find anyone, he will go himself. That got me thinking about the 37 vows of a Bodhisattva. There's a suggestion that a Bodhisattva would sleep with ugly women to make them happy.

10. This book reminds me of the bawdy novel Thom Jones. It's a rollicking, make the most of life type novel. People who live close to the edge. I could see the Beats liking the novel.

11. I don't really agree with Zorba's ideas about manhood, I've never really felt any pull of concepts of gender. My male role models couldn't fix their cars. I know women in my past wished I was more protective, or took more financial responsibility. Every time I've played the lusty fellow is wasn't so much appreciated. 

I have worked with the transgender, and felt deep sorrow at their plights and persecution. The murder rates are high, the early death rates are high. Once a year they read all the names of the people who have died at City Hall in NYC. The list feels too long.

I myself could never imagine trying to mutilate my body to be like a different gender. Even though I'm not a stereotypical man I have no desire to switch to be a woman. To me if feels like I need to adjust to being in the body of a man. When I was young the call to adventure made me brave, and that was perhaps manly. In middle age, I became caring and supportive. I can see how modern times expects you to be relational all the time instead of competitive and individualistic, and that it would be an advantage to be a woman now. I wish my body was desirable and could give pleasure the way a woman's body does. The tragedy of male sexuality is something I could do without. I never wished to somehow switch genders, though I am quite accepting of my "female" side. I feel sorry for a transgender person who wants to be recognized as the opposite gender they were born with. Their performance is sad at best, convincing at worst. 

The anti-transgender perspective (TERF) don't want to be kind. The chief complaint as far as I can tell is the aggressive sexuality of the Male to Females, who they feel invade their female sex spaces. Sex as opposed to gender is not something they claim can be changed. Men as women still have aggressive sexuality, and the demand to be wanted is not appreciated. Don't enter female space with male aggression dressed as a woman. The MtF Transwomen feel unjustly excluded, what more can they do? Feels like an intractable conflict.

I used to focus more on the tragedy of being transgender, but some focus on the aggressiveness of being told they have to want them.  They reject that. I didn't really like the aggression of being told I wanted them. They can be attractive, I don't begrudge them that, but I was not attracted to them in general. I'm attracted to people not gender, and the obsession of gender performance is the opposite of what I want: Gender irrelevance. I don't like men who embrace masculinity or women who embrace femininity. I like the new indeterminate character on Star Trek. But I get it that transgender want to cleave towards the opposite of what they are born. To me it feels more ideological than real, and I'm sure that's a barrier in my empathy. There are so many ways in which we have to adapt to the world. I suppose it's a marvel of modern technology that we don't have to do that with gender. 

Women as men are not as offensive. Go ahead and be that way if you want to. Chop off the meaty fun bags, take the hormone. Pump some iron. You're not going to have a functioning penis, which is of dubious use anyway. Lesbians are better at making women come than men are. Anyway, strapons exist. You've gone the wrong way in the zeitgeist. We need to be more empathetic and relational. Manhood is obsolete. I'm not saying we don't need support or that we can't feel male pride. We just don't need super macho hunters, and super macho men seem tragic nowadays. Zorba seems an exaggeration now, a way of being that time has passed. He does not deny his desires, and seems to live life to fullest, I like that. There is a sort of integration and beginners mind. But in terms of gender performance, he's obsolete. I know there are women who wants that, want men more macho, don't agree with their taming. Mostly they can't function in our society, which is just a small fraction of why it's so hard to function in our current society. I guess an update on Zorba would be to confront a transgender male to female, and even a female to male. What would Zorba make of that? It would probably jam his pagan mind.

12. When I was a therapist, I believed in people's experience. If you tell me a ghost picked you up in the street, then I believed that is your experience. I don't contradict people and say ghosts don't exist. That would make things worse. If someone says they're in the wrong sex body, then I believed that was the best description of what someone was experiencing. My above meditation is not to void transgender experience, it's to express my experience. People can't blot out other people with their experience, because everyone's experience is valid as their experience. My heart goes out to the transgender.

13. Shaking off Christianity's prudery is a goal of some Buddhists, to work to integrate it beyond Christian judgements, and eventually rise above it. The pagan Zorba may in some way point to some of the working out of it. Zorba's integration with his body is perhaps to be admired. He can communicate by dance, how many people can say that, even if it's self reported?

14. In the end, I'm sure in 1946 it was a very Buddhist literature book, but today in 2020 it's not very insightful into Buddhism. The world has quite evolved in terms of the western appreciation of Buddhism. The western appreciation is skewed away from magic and miracles, perfect knowledge and Christian terminology, skewed towards meditation, even as more Buddhists are Pure Land and chant instead of meditation. Chanting is meditative. I know it is for me when I do it. But they are Buddhists and they don't dominate the Reddits because they're more other powered and most vocal Buddhists are fleeing from the blind faith of Christianity. Zorba understands with more than his head, which is all the narrator can understand Buddhism as he tries to write about it. 

15. He does pick out beginner's mind perhaps before that was a term. Zorba has a kind of integration, aliveness, and energy. And I do quite enjoy the friendship in the novel. 

16. It's terrible they cut off the head of the widow. That it's not really explained makes it more troublesome. I worry over it. They killed her because she slept with the boss? That is terrible. They owned her sexuality? I guess it's to emphasize the horribleness of a small village on Crete. Their brutality. Then Bouboulina dies, and they ransack her home before she is even cold. Quite terrible. The fantasy of Americans is that Europe is more civilized, but of course A Portrait of a Lady puts that to bed. The novel is filled with Cretan customs and ways of being.

17. "I felt deep within me that the highest point man can attain is not Knowledge, or Virtue, or Goodness, or Victory, but something even greater, more heroic and more despairing: Sacred Awe!" (p.269)

18. Women get more pleasure from giving pleasure to men, than the pleasure she gets from men? Zorba says that. I don't know about that. That sounds more like a male fantasy. And everyone, male or female get pleasure from other's pleasure.

19. Quite a touching friendship.

Friday, November 20, 2020

La Traviata



The Fallen Woman is about a courtesan (Violetta) who is sick with consumption. The opera is by Verdi and it's on the Met for free today until 630pm EST.

One of the things I'm grateful for is the free streaming of the Met during this pandemic. I'll be forever grateful to them. I get overwhelmed by opera and have to take breaks, but I keep coming back to it, because they're still streaming it for free every day. Yesterday was Rusalka, which I loved!

It occurred to me that Alfredo is making merit by supporting Violetta in her dying days. We're all going to die, whether it's from consumption or whatever. She starts out by wanting to party, but then she finds love. The father doesn't like the match, but in the end he is sorry. The music gets me. 

Alfredo's father comes to tell Violetta that his daughter can't get married if his family is known to associate with a courtesan. She agrees to break it off. They sing at each other the hope that they are happy, in parting.

Reaching for higher things is the ultimate spiritual development. Rejecting hedonism, while perhaps still kissing the joys as they pass by. It's about impermanence. That's such a Buddhist cliche but it's true, cliches are the ketchup of truth, the Jim Belushi of Truth, according to Jeffery Winger in Community. 

The ballet interlude is amazing.

So Violetta ends it with Alfredo, and they see each other at a party. She's on the arm of some old fossil, who forbids her to speak to him, but they do and sparks fly, they still love each other. He throws money at her, and his father comes out and says he has disgraced himself.

I can't help but fall in love with Damrau. Diana Damrau, Juan Diego Flórez, and Quinn Kelsey are the stars, and it is conducted by Yannick Nézet-Séguin. (From December 15, 2018)

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

Odds and ends Links



Visuddhimagga Study Group Podcast

Visuddhimagga






The Buddha and his natural environment in Thai manuscript art


I read a prequel and watched Picard. I find the Qowat Milat fascinating. It is an all female monastic order. They are dedicated to open communication, which is the opposite of the Romulan society, which is secretive. So in a way, they are perhaps an example of an aspect of right communication, in not being secretive. They are the keepers of a secret. 

They had a fascinating ritual where they looked at something, the secret knowledge, and it led some of them to commit suicide, and one to go crazy. But one didn't die, and she carries out the mission. 

I think sometimes if you look at all the suffering in the world it might lead to suicide. It's hard to maintain equanimity. I guess that should give me sympathy for people who obviously don't want to see things, the obvious example is Trump with Covid. Death is another notorious secret we can't hold.


A Buddhist Thanksgiving liturgy.

Wednesday, November 04, 2020

November 4th USA

Theradithi's drawing


Love these YouTube monk talks. This one is "How To Sustain Your Mindfulness". Going to listen to one every full moon. I'm copying monks, cut hair on moon day, talk Dharma and confess (with myself if I can't find a friend).

I like this blog by Dhivan Jones.

I'm upset this morning, I thought I would wake up to good news. It has reminded me to turn inward and control the things that I can control. Be the change I want to see.

I liked this answer in r/Buddhism to the question of whether it's possible to be omnipotent:

"...if I have omnipotence, I would snap and everyone attains to nibbana immediately. Snap, even hell beings are liberated, and instantly goes to heaven and attained to arahanthood, awaiting the final death. Snap, includes all beings from lower realms to have the same effect, snap, all beings in all realms, in all multiverses become enlightened, no more need for Buddhas to appear. Snap, why stop at arahant? Everyone become fully enlightened Buddha. Why if there's a God, had he not done all these just by having the power of omnipotence and knowledge of Buddhism?" by u/DiamondNgXZ

I was going there to say it doesn't matter, irrelevant about whether you're mindful or kind. I hadn't thought of that answer.